The prank on the poor pity lil poor gal..hahah

These few days of holiday fever had made me feeling extremely lazy. I went out almost daily with my roommate ,who perhaps i can say --had multiple mishaps. She claimed they only happen when she was with me.

On the Friday night prior to the end of semester, we went out to have dinner. But it turned out to be the biggest prank played ever on my friend.

It started when we were on the way home in the bus but the 145 bus didn't continue it s journey, it stopped in the midway because the driver wanted to have dinner break. Then she told me there s something smelly. I can't properly taste the air but i noticed the foul stench (like the wet market smell) coming nearby but i can't find the source.

In the other bus stand as we were waiting to another bus, the wind kept on blowing so it s cold, she covered her head with the hood. That's when we found out where the bad smell came from..

I looked at her with her wet hair and the fluid dripping to her clothes..eww..what a sight..hahahha, i can't help it but to laugh ..The smell was lucidly fresh and super duper fouling(dont't know if such word existed!!)hahahaha..

Pity tht poor gal..we ve got no tissues,no nothing..but to wait until we reach home and will throw all the jacket and clothes into the machine..

friendships and their types

friendships and their types

Friendship can not be properly defined as no borders have been set to make out the true definition of the word.
But through my eyes and experience they can be classified into few categories.
The first type of classification is according to the value of the relationship between the friends.

1)conditional 2)unconditional 3)mixed

Conditional friendships are basically mostly what friendships are about.75%of our friends and the friendship shared belong to this category.Why is it conditional?
People make use of other people all the time. Humans are social creature.

We live in community.We make groups and gangs for multiple reasons. For negative reasons,some people make groups as they think they are superior than others ad dislike the company of others. Some cant get along because of personal beliefs.While some need comfort and sense of acceptance when they join a group.

Conditional friendship=friendship formed for some purposes.(for example classmates,they might be friends on the surface but you cant turn to them when you are in real trouble.But you have to socialise with them because they are connected to you)other example is friendships between bosses and associates,housemates.

These kind of friendships just happen because they need to exist in order for the components of the relation to survive the situation to avoid conflict or to gain something from each other.They are not real as once the situation bends or when they no longer need you,the friendships will die.They will come as they go.

It is not sincere,wont stand through time,jealousy and back stabbing often happen.Sometimes it may cause unwanted stress and hatred in the relationship but we will move on the next day because we need to.

The other kind of friendship is what we can call as unconditional . It is pure,sincere and trustworthy. Trust comes with time and love comes from the heart.We would want to give the best to our friend without asking anything in return.We would side them even if they are the minority.We don't have to understand what they believe in but we will respect them. Support each other through thick and thin, share thoughts and happiness in life are the best things they do with each other. We only need few friends like this and we live in bliss..

These two types of friendship can morph and change according to situations and time.When we have unconditional friendship with other person, we hold an obligation to keep it that way as things can fade. No friendship lasts forever unless we intended to keep it that way.

weird al is the greatest,most creative ,funny artist

too white and nerdy-weird al

my friend wrote a poem.

если станет холодно, представь, что я рядышком
укутываю Тебя одеялом
целую в шейку, нежно глажу по голове рукой, целую в губки..шепчу: Ты самая самая!я
буду скучать Ангелочек...Твой лешка..)
поправляю одеялко и сажусь рядышком)

я хочу обнять, прижаться к Тебе..чувствовать Твое
дыхание...Чувствовать Тебя, что Ты рядом...держать
Тебя ласково..нежно..как кристалик льда боясь
разрушить его...
смотреть в Твои прекрасные глазки..тонуть в Твоем
чарующем взгляде...

держать Твои нежные ручки в своих...поцеловать
Тебя в Твою нежную шейку...
слегка укусить за Твое красивое ушко...прошептать:
Ты самая самая Зайка...
поцеловать Тебя в твои карамельные губки...обнять
и не отпускать..

recipe rendang from amrah..thank you.

RENDANG

3 sudu besar ketumbar
1 sudu besar jintan manis
1 inci halia
1-2 inci lengkuas
3 batang serai
12 ulas bawang merah
2 ulas bawang putih
6 sudu besar cili boh
20 biji cili padi
3 keping asam keeping
4 tin santan atau lebih
Ayam atau daging
3 ¾ sudu besar garam
Daun kunyit
Kerisik

Cara ;

1. ketumbar dan jintan manis ditumbuk atau di blender halus
2. halia,lengkuas , serai, bawang merah , bawang putih, cili padi di blender halus
3. gaulkan ayam atau daging dgn cili boh..dan bahan2 yg diblender dan di kisar halus
4. masukkan santan hingga keluar tahi minyak
5. masukkan daging atau ayam dan masak .hingga empuk
6. tambah santan jika perlu
7. letak garam.,daun kunyit dicuci dan disiat2 dan dimasukkan ke dalm masakan
8. masuk kerisik bila masakan hamper kering
9. masak hingga rending kering jika suka..

** kalau takde ketumbar..jintan manis..lengkuas..tak pe jee..saya tak guna pun..
Kerisik pun kalau sedap letak byk2..tapi kalau takde..tak pekat laaa..
Okay laa tu je..
Slmt mencuba bila2..okay ..paka…

we went skating

Behind rostik Metro oktyaberskaya, is the entrance to the skating ring. We went there with wenli,peter,Anton and another Anton..Entrance fee was 250 and 150 for rent of the shoes.
It was fun and some russian boys asked us how to say hi in other languages. So i taught them in korean. I fell few times but i had great time.

Dead rat,attacking rats,bedbugs

I woke up to the sounds of crunchings,plastic shuffles. So i went to the cupboard to find a big fat rat running away from the cupboard and disappeared..to nowhere..
It was not the rat which i was afraid of but it was the feeling of sickness to the stomach and mounting disgusts that i cant stand whenever i see a rat around!

Plus the bathroom was smelling foul with a dead rat..u can smell the stink but u cant find the carcass of the dead rat..

I did wish for dead rats but now i regretted it as the smell was awful..i hope it s not behind the planks of wood in which we dont have access too!at least if it s under the bathtub,perhaps we can do something ..or ask Sam to do it..hehe...nice fella..thank you very much..

Holy crap!!

i cant believe this video..but about the money ,yes some professors definitely want US dollars..but since i m lack of those i better get myself get going!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RQN-9qp3_XE

Am i insufficient??

Every night before i go to bed,i pray to God,hoping He can hear me..Hope He listens to my heart cry,most of the time thanking Him for all that i own.Myself,my family,my friends and the world around me.I thank Him for the peace of mind that i can sleep at night.I Thank HIm for health and happiness in my life.I thank Him for the talents He gave when He made me.I Thank him for people who broke me so i can be a stronger person.I thank Him for the bad situations i ve been through which have moulded my confidence and who i am now,thankful for people who love me and who had loved me before,for the wonderful childhood i had,for the taste of my own tears which have soften my heart,for the many kisses i had and given ,for laying the path before me..

Sometimes before i reach up to all the names i needed to mention my thanks for ,i fell asleep.There are times i would still stay up to mention all,i can think of.All the thanks i needed to be thankful for.It s not only a bout me saying Thanks but in the same process i was constantly reminded of how rich i am,inside out!At the moment in which i was prasing His name,i felt complete,fullfilled,loved,peace,unimaginable sense of belonging, i felt so rich even if i am not perfect nor in full pink of health.

Then the next day ,i would wake up forgetting the Thanks i said. I forgot how many things in life i have that many others would envy.Waking up to look at the ugliness of my eyebags,oily hair.DOnt want to make the list longer,I ll take bath and feel better and fresher.Get dressed up and with coffee to start my day,i ll check my mails and read some news.When i come to the part where people die in fire,hunger strikes in draughted area,war which will never end,diseases..i rather read about technology so i can see where the better future can head to..new robots to do micro/nano surgeries,retinal implantations and others.Hoping by then i would feel better.
but no..instead,I lost my senses to love and appreciate everything around me..I am miserable,depressed person with big ego.Then i ll do what i needed to do..study,managing my life,angry at things i was unable to do..Frustrated when i cant memorize what i urgently need to..Feeling short of talents for a moment there..
Looking back at my practical and attachment days in the holidays,i met amazing people ,doctors,lab technicians,patients,van drivers,surgeons,anesthesiologists,nurses,mid wives,mothers,assistants..many more..i felt so little comparing myself to them..These people have so much of talents and they have been to places i ve never been before,sacrifices they ve made to be where they are ,just too great,too perfect,too beautiful!..
I m just a nobody..This is one of the moment where the time stood still and yet i can feel my heart beats..Each beat tells me that i am still alive and standing ,i still have time to achieve the greatness that these people had achieve.with my incompetency,i impatiently wish that i have greater talents and time to achieve greatness..will i be able to be who i wanted to be?when i am finally there,how will i feel?will i be asking and wishing for more??
Oh!How small i feel...nothing a but mere dust on the computer screen!!Drowning in panic,there is no time!!I am already in my 5th year of medical course..soon to be graduated and crowned as a doctor.But how come i dont feel that i can do the things they do??will i be insufficient?WIll i fail to do what i should when i work?How can i overcome the fear of being lowly qualified?I did what was told,i studied all tht i needed to,sometimes more..but the more i read through,the more i am lacking..Fear of humilation doesnt stop me easily but failure to use what i learned disappoints me a lot...How can a mere diplome prove your competency??red or blue does it matters?

I need experience!!!i wanted to skip the mistakes and straight to the point where i earn the experiences!MAy i do that please!!???i need to breath for one moment..

show me a clear mind so i can see what lies in front of me..Lord show me my way home,show me my destiny..
i am not sure if it was His voice i heard or it was my heart telling me what to do...

For Time being, realising my goal was the best solution to this negative feeling..How does someone becomes immortal in their basic sense?It all comes down to hard work,sacrifices,and individual talents God had given us..With patience, i shall follow the star which drives us to our goal...

And at the end of the day, i would still pray to Him who forgives,and cleanse my heart from tears,low esteem.He made me look good in my own eyes..I am rich once again.

Things started to change..

Things started to change..
The world goes round and round..My principle has changed...Things changed..The people around me changed..The weather changes everyday..My heart rate changes every second..My priority has changed.

Talking about changes,there are certain rules to hold on to when the drift come upon us.What we believed strongly before must become flexible as the situation changes.Adaptations made us mature in the environment, used to be alien to us.

But does the adaptation has the bad side?As my point of view,the answer is yes.Let s start with the few pointers.When we adapt, we get used to the culture and habits of local people. We get used to the smell of second hand cigarettes, we got used to the cold weather, we got used to the disgusting living space,not only the bitterness of alcholic drinks but also the super sour salads.I m speaking about life in Moscow.

Our life has been simplified to simple fast food instead of home cooking,coffee shots instead of sleep,Internet instead of news on tv but then and again we complicate our life by joining certain social groups as if we have so much time leftover from our studies.

Whenever i go home for the summer holiday, i have to get back to my feet. Therefore,adjustments to the hot weather,the regime of taking baths few times a day,to the suroundings,and the newly made highways.I got lost for a moment.Wondering when did my youngest grew so tall,why i cant find kitchen utilities in place,and where the heck are my clothes everytime i got home.Sometimes,some of my girlfriends will call me up and say''hey!Jo ,meet my husband,my son or my new car!''. And then when i visit my high school i cant find the mural i painted nor the beach area which i used to build my dream sand castle or the food stall we used to hang out.

I felt as if i knew Moscow better than my own hometown at that moment.When i visited the place i used to work,people who was there wasnt there anymore.They all seemed be moving on but what i felt for all these stayed the same from the moment i left them..

Sometimes i do envy friends who already own proper carreer,a car maybe or hapily married.Looking at myself ,i had nothing offer ,to anyone and sadly to admit my parents.

I cant help them to ease their burden to pay bills,i cant be with them when they needed my support, i cant talk to them and share moments. But the longer being overseas i started to lose my love for the things i used to love.For example, i dont like to watch tv anymore,i rather spend my time online than reading the daily newspapers,i dislike eating the oily food from hawker stall,i am afraid of strolling at the beach at night,i hate the crowd at pasar malam and many more.

My friends do meet up and we talked for hours but that only happen after long time of planning .Everyone seemed to be busy.Life has put me through difficult situations and many things that had happened changed my mind and perspective.

In some sort of crooked way, i absorbed the experience and my adventure into use.....

Why Do Men Have Nipples?

Why Do Men Have Nipples?
Monday November 27, 2006
Brace yourselves for a low blow, tough guy. Nipples remind us that gender is anything but clear-cut, especially in utero. Whatever your sex, everyone starts off as a woman in the womb.

For the first several weeks a developing embryo follows a "female blueprint," from reproductive organs to nipples. Only after about 60 days does the hormone testosterone kick in (for those of us with a Y chromosome), changing the genetic activity of cells in the genitals and brain. But by then those mammary papillae aren't going anywhere.

So the real question is: why do male nipples come equipped with nerves and blood vessels? In many male mammals nipple formation is stunted by hormones, but not in humans. Did prehistoric men nurse their young? The lack of evidence suggests not. More likely, full-grown nipples—being harmless—don't get weeded out by natural selection.

food craze!!

michael made this
this is red chicken meat in sauce

this is my personal cooking at home!!


here the large ms D's big tasty..
and next is the cokodok alien..

dear daddie

A father entered his daughter's bedroom and saw a letter on the bed. With the worst premonition, he read it with trembling hands.

Dear Mum and Dad,
It is with great regret and sorrow that I'm telling you that I've eloped with my new boyfriend. I've found real love and he is so nice.

Especially with all his piercing's, scars, tattoos, and his big motorcycle. But it's not only that, I'm pregnant, and Ahmed said that we will be very happy in his trailer in the woods. He wants to have many more children with me and that's one of my dreams. I've learned that marijuana doesn't hurt anyone and we'll be growing it for us and his friends. They're the one's providing us with all the cocaine and ecstasy we could ever want. In the meantime, we'll pray for science to find the AIDS cure, so Ahmed gets better. He deserves it.

Don't worry about money. Ahmed has arranged for me to be in films that his friends Leroy and Jamal make in their basement. Apparently I can earn £50 a scene. I get a £50 bonus if there are more than three men in the scene, and an extra £100 if they use the horse.

Don't worry Mum. Now I'm 15 years old, I know how to take care of myself. Someday I'll visit you and Dad so that you can meet your grandchildren.

Your loving daughter Aimee

P.S: Dad, it's not true. I'm watching TV at a neighbour's house. I just wanted to show you that there are worse things in life than ENGLAND LOSING ON PENALTIES AGAIN. Aimee

the stupid questions i answered..

What am i doing now?writing a blog,listening to Corinne Bailey Rae
Who is on my mind now?My family at home
What i feel like eating now?nothing,i m full..happie with my morning dose of coffee
Who am i with right now?My sleeping roomies
What on earth u like best?erm..trick question eh..hmm..cant say as wat i like changes from time to time
Which movie is ur long time fav?Star wars series
what game u usually play?i dont play games anymore ..does love counts?
which colour among the 12 u see in my mind now? can i say pink?
what colour is ur underwear now?let me check down there..oh i forgot to wear..lols
what noise u r hearing rite now?my computer fan
What is on ur mind right now? the outing with a russian friend..
what would u wish for now?for now..erm..to unstuck my bathrub..damn!
what song u wish to listen to ?the song i m listening to
Are u statisfied with ur life?so far i m happie to be alive!
do u think ur table is messy?yeah a lil bit only..hehehehe..
what is ur long time wish tht nv come true yet?can i ask for more than 1..?my graduation and blissful marriage..(whoa wayy to sentimental)Blushing..hehe
what is the thing tht u own but u hate the most?my rubbish..i own it and i hate it..haha
what would u do if ur bf/gf run away v much more attractive person?nah i don care..i get another bf..
where would like to visit the most?the space..i wana feel weightlessness
do u think this questions are stupid?....Trick question?..will u want me to be honest?..haha..look at the title of this blog page haha then u ll find the answer..

long time..

All that i had in my mind was my best friend ,roomates,family at home and mik's grandma..i managed to call them all but somehow cant get tru mik's mama..

called granma tru antie Ngors phone..it makes me sad tht grandma fell down and hurt her arm..

called amy ,she said she was busy with assignment..so i called winnie,she s back at home watching TV ..oh how cute..

these few months things did happen but i dont have time to write it down..kinda forgot..but one good thing though i got a decent mp3 player finally!it s samsung t7y..
i m happie with wat i have and wont asked for more..really..

woke up with the blues

The cough woke me up at about 7.30am Moscow time.feeling so tired i went back to sleep.
Went to the metro and withdraw ,paid the internet service,bought some food.

Back in the city with glowing face

It was long tiring and not to mention boring flight.But luckily i was having subfebrile fever and mild headache so i slept well throughout the journey.

The journey back to the city started from Bayan lepas airport where i took the AirAsia flight to LCCT.It was delayed and i got to KLIA at about 1Am.One thing troublesome about Air Asia flights to KLIA is the lack of free transport to KLIA.
It took me about 20 mins by a taxi which costs Rm 30 to KLIA from LCCT.

WHile waiting for the Qatar flight to be open, i sat at the sandwich stall=forgot its name and online ..and fell alseep and woke up..
to make the story short,i took the Qatar flight and reached Doha.
Nothing so special except tht i bought Mp4 player.
Transfer to Moscow.Voila and here i am.
DIfficulty of getting transport back to hostel was solved when a guy in yeloow shirt approached us and offer rides for 400p per person.

Once i reached the hostel,i unlocked the door just to find the electricity was faulty and the whole block was dark .Got it fixed by the electrician who livs on the 6th floor 9.
Everything was on.

A day sitting in KLIA

took pg kl flight and from there took taxi

sunny day

OOOooo......the girls's day out..Fir and i went to kurskaya..after walking in the magestic mall for hours..i cant stop but to notice the sushi bar..well decorated and nice costume they were wearing as if they have tatoos on their body coz it s skin coloured suit...Arbat prestige made some changes too..cant find the usual things in place..

The greatest day ever spent in the whole semester!!

The morning was hot and the alarm woke me up....
I went to Ismailoveski park with a friend who also wanted to get some souvenirs to bring home..we walked and walk for4hours and seen many many russian dolls and art pieces..the day was so sunny..after the walk ,i was 2 skin ti=one darker!!even my foundation cant match my skin tone already!
as we walked we were hungry and found a chinese restaurant
He ordered fried noodles and i ordered sweet n sour pork with pineapple=this is like the first time we ever got into a chinese restaurant in MOscow!!
whoa the dishes are meant for 3!!so large..but it is enjoyable..

then the day was still young so we decided since it will be his last day to be in moscow ,we wanted to visit the central..
At bout six we left for Krachaya ploshad..
we had great time taking pics outside the central TSum..cant afford to shop so why not enjoy taking pics??haha

we were under the sun the whole day!!But definitely a good day well spent!!

It feels great but it also hurts

FInally i finished my exams..the last one was neurology and neurosurgery.I chickened out yesterday thinking i cant take the exam because i thought i wasnt ready for it..i made the decision only in the morning..then i slept and my phone rangs after the exam,ppl said it wasnt so difficult after all..

so i dragged myself and go to the dean and got myself the dopusk to do the exam today instead of next semester.Thakfully i have a friend who came and helped out with soem of the stuff i havent covered.In the end i managed to cover all topics and some ,i even repeated thrice or at least twice in the textbook but some how i felt like as if i dont remember anything..my breath smells like hardcore to the full deep core of coffee...

so i didnt sleep last night or the night before..it s no big deal.cant sleep also thinking how this is gonna be the last and final straw to pick..then finally can go home n hug all my loved ones.=)

Done it n leave it..so it wasnt to tough eh neurology and neurosurgery !!hahahha..or was i just lucky?..Nggg..

I wana go home!!!!i missed my sisters!!!!my home my mom and my dad....the hawkers......my friends...havent done any shopping yet also..
and one more thing..let me whine a lil..huuhhhuu
my tooth hurts v multiple oral ulcers...i m already 23 and my tooth havent stop grwoing yet...pain...and also i added a tyre around my waist..darn...exams sux

Life isnt about u most of the time..

yesterday was a great day afterall..it has been a long times since we all enjoyed a good old birthday party..
i called up Peter in the noon to ask him to get the BLACK PRINCE choc cake which was edwins favourite as long as i can remember we always have tht cake in his every birthdays celebrated here..
being friends since we were young and were high school,he has been supportive..he had seen me in my tears,laughter,drunk and sober,in n out of relationships,been with with through my dissapoinment and happiness..He s a kind person so he s popular with the students here..there r times he forgot about me and other close friends when he s got the new ones but i hope he remember one thing though,no matter how his crowd of ffirned changes i m the one whos still here...

STill the BBQ set was left to me by Vikash who left last year aftr completing his med course in which i still have 2 more years to go..i hope i can make the protocol keep on going..
Then next year it s gonna be edwin who s saying goodbye and leave this place for good...when will it gona be me..
I never had birthday party thrown for me here with my friends coz i can say tht i m luckier tht mine is in august..so i can celebrate it with my family at home..
afterall ]life can be a bitch but it can also be a bliss...

We live and we learn

Telling myself it s ok for the first time to just pass..but i m feeling very sober and dissapointed with myself..while many can easily adapt to the language settings here..
Kept thinking if others can do it why not me?Am i m getting dumber or lazier by the minute?
Now it s time for me to get back to my foot for the next exam=neurology.
but i felt getting a 4 is like a distant away..maybe barely passing..so i m prepared to take my failure for the first time..
after all,theere s a first time for everything..
From first step to first kiss..
so from the first excellent year in 3rd year to the worst results in 4th year..
Made a promise to myself silently the next will be better..
regretted profusely for not preparing earlier..

Witness of natural birth..got me feeling emo..

It was late in the afternoon or shall we call it evening..the class was supposed to start at 1.30 pm but suddenly at about 330pm our teacher finally came..asked us to change and get ready to see a natural child birth..

and so we went up stairs,..while waiting,one lady was having cramps and it s painful because we can hear her moaning in pain.contractions in first period of birth activity(gosh i hope the terms are correct coz direct translations from russian lang)
for every 10 mins her contractions lasted for 15-20 seconds..but her cervix wasnt ready and it wasnt fully open..perhaps tht time when we were there it s only 3-4cm..

they fixed an ecg electrod to monitor the fetus s heart rate..
Then my teacher finally appear..and we went to the labour room..
Push mom push..hehehehe..
saw the head v tiny fine hairs in mucous like layers of fluids.
but the baby s head was lil too large..so snips oblique to enlarge the promeshnosti
then the baby s head is out but it s shoulder was stucked..using hands managed to get it out..then accidently the baby swallowed the amniotic fluid which was greenish due to perhaps chronic hypoxy or infections intraunterine..clamped the umbilical n cut it..

the mother was smiling..but the baby cried a little only..she s so beautiful and cute..took out the placenta and make sure it s whole..clean the baby girl and weighed it..3.1kg
i was really happy and joyful to witness such event..

O n G department....

The class started a lil late .Like usual we all took bus to konkova ,then walked a lil and reached another busstop..And took bus number 72(trolley bus)..Cant help but to notice a florist there..The pink trimmed roses are simply irresistible!

we changed in to our surgery costumes and go up all the way ..then we went to the surgery room to witness a caesarian section birth..

the mother seemed to be relaxed and happy..As if there s no pain at all while smiling ,she looked around in her glasses looking at what the nurses and staff were doing..

Her belly was huge like water melon with numerous stretch marks from the symphi.pubis up to the popka...

then he nurses cleaned the abdomen and covered em up v cloths..The surgeon then make an incision about 15cm in length..On the area above syphi pubis.

First it was the skin,then we can see the M.rectus abd. and they cut tru it to get to the uterus..then finally..we can see the uterus in purplish colour then they make another incision ..blood gushed out like fountain and stained nurses costumes

they pulled out the baby s butt first then lastly the head coz of the baby s positions =main reasons this procedure needed to be done...

they clip the umbilical cord and cut it off .took the baby to weighing machine and poke it all over making the move to make it take the first breath clean the mouth n nose..on a cold iron tray.while the nurses checking for the placenta

when they sew the mom up layers by layers and lastly do the cosmetic swov on the skin while other 2 nurses took the baby and showed it to the mother then took it into other room on the iron tray..to clean and feed it..

COOL!!

A boozzeee for the day..nothing so great inside

Today nothing mcuh happened but one thing i know though..i dont feel as good inside but i do feel good on the outside...a big booze for me whenever a russian guy walks by and say WHoa when he turned and checked me out..cool..at least i look alright..or err..IS THERE SOMETHING ON MY FACE?STAINS OR SMTG?HUUHHHHH!!

MASSAD 06 the bad annual dinner!!

The sunday started late and i missed my mass due to late night sleep on saturday...but it indeed started well with a smile on my face in the morning..having steph in the room is like a blessing..=)

Then Neilson came with the church buletins like usual*a reminder of me missing the church mass*hehe....he told me tht steph will need to go earlier in the other bus..i wasnt so happy bout it.Then came swan ling n her roommate and i helped them to get their make up done..

and they all left me for the function.When the time came,Gerard knocked on my door.
but the shitty bus wasnt on schedule..we waited in the windy ,sunny day outside for like 1h 30 mins..i started to feel sick again with tht throbbing migraine starting..
Edwin went to the apteka n bought me the paracetamol.I swallowed them dry..then in the bus the heater in the bus was on..burning my legs near there..

We were late when we got there..no space for us to put the jackets also have to bring them in..the hall was so darn small the seats was damn !!so damn thight!no space to move around or comfy is out of the question...

then the food in the menu they sounded like promising
but when thy finally arrive we have to share all
one ikea plate of spagethi v half plate occupied by other dish and STILL we need to share with other 4 people..wat is this shit!!we all went home hungry tht night with steph sleeping and her stomach growling!!HUnger after dinner!!stupid !!

the soup was horible too!!who add corns in kanji soup haa!!tatse so weird!!and the fruits are all rotten !!are we dogs!!i wonder where the money goes!!!

no point dressing up for such event wasting money and time...

furthermore i sat far from my gang..i hate tht..
i have no good things to say about the anuual dinner...F****ed up it really is!so i m just honest here.........

my life is in a blur today..

i attended Lina's birthday party..as the days gone by too fast,my mind was focused only on two things now..
it s the coming year end exams..and also about the special meeting..
making me feeling really nervous and excited at the same time..

Nothing much really happened today.but i was thankful to be given this short break from uni and hospital cycles..coz i was losing it a little since the previous cycle..

I cant help but feeling guilty everytime i ate a lot more than usual..i think i m infected with the Stupid girls syndrome like the one PINK have been singing about..
come one Jo,i only ate like wat..2bowls of curry mee,2pieces of tht super fatteningly yummy choc cake and some snack no big deal laaa.ok?

darn i hope i m not falling into the category in which those girls talk only about their weight and obsessed with fatness on their bodies..erm..i think perhaps i did tht al the time..

but as i see there are so much of beauty in the world not just the ones which meet the eyes but deeper ones!and i also learnt tht love can also blind us and makes us think tht the other one is heavenly!yeah!

Mini minie more?!and beautiful eyes?

ysterday was a heavy day. but it went by just as fast. patient told me that i have beautiful eyes.haha..paiseh ha..coz all she can see was my eyes under the mask and surgery suit.

gosh i m late.

------------------------------will add to this later---------------730 am may 4 2006
then we have this mini exam to make sure we know how to make diagnose based on our theorical classes for these whole 2weeks...
I was rushing to finish my patient's history and managed to pass it up on time...
I was lucky to get a female patient with acute gastritis..well at least its the diagnose i made upon the *ostitatsia* so i got my marks and WELL DONE!..tht night me and Fir and such good time at the Sinbad cafe eating our dinner..
tomorrow till tuesdays will be holiday!!yay!

well these few days ,i got real bad ass pulsating migraine on the right temporal of my head ..i have no idea what triggered it..perhaps my emotional stress...lets not think about it olright?we still have paracetamol and aspirins to the resQ!!!

all i can give to u is friendship..

i m just a friend

Dont know what s wrong with our exs,
especially u..

When they were your bf ,
they never appreciate you,
They throw tantrums,
they scream and shouted at you,
they hit you,gripped on your wrists,
so hard tht it was bruised with finger marks,
one had other girl in his heart too..

another had their parents looked down
on your mom and dad,
what they did ,
tht they need to suffer such disgrace?
in fact why want to hurt them
when they loved me so much?
for fuck sake they are my parents
u r talking to!!

when things are ok,
we had our dinner together,
which was made by my two hands
but they nv said it s nice,
you clean their bathtub,
even if u were their guest in the hostel,
but their blockmates make them dirty,
shared lots of good friends
but when we broke up
they took sides...

but all that was over now,
i m as free as a bird
my mind is peaceful and willingly to fall,
to freely love someone else,
i am relieved...tht i can get out from this
before it s too late..

i can still offer friendships,
i can offer u my hand when u r in need,
we can hang around talking bout good ol times,
we can go on separate ways and be happy ,
free...and always together as friends..

but not when u r acting like a jerk,
havent your parents taught u well?
sarcasm isnt the way to make things right,
and tht hitting a girl wasnt a thing to do..

i cant give u more than friendship
No matter what you want...
let s look back at things
u had done to mess this up..
dont need to make promises
because when i left u
i already gave up
there s no more love left in my heart
but pure friendship..
u can take it or leave it..

so dont hurt me ,
and act like assholes to me,
i dont deserve this!!
all i asked for was friendship and fairness,
nothing more nothing less,
i had been too patient
with your bad ass attitude..
i had enough!i m sick of this..

let me go on with my life,
but i will always be there when u needed me
to lend a hand or to share our thoughts
to have some fun or to cry on my shoulder
yes i can give u all this
as long as u promised me a true friendship...
coz it s all i can give....
i m leaving all behind
and taking with me only
the good ol times
trying to forget why it ended...

so i m beggging u please
dont hurt me again...
i m just a friend
so please be fair and treat me like one..
if u cant accept this..
just say the word and i will leave..
i m just a friend

All about the surgery cycle and caffein tablets..i m a druggie...

Since the end of the war field surgery,my mind has been in a blur..All i can think of was sleeping in the lectures and classes is no good..but i cant stop doing that even if i tried paying 100 %attention ..so i asked Teelun for some cafein tabs..
Besides it got me more interested bcoz it can induce lipolysis and increase adenosine induced body function thus increasing my body metabolism..i read about this in e-med ,the usual website where i do all my studies in english coz i just cant afford any textbooks..

The sun is getting sunnier in the evening,the peak is when it s near 5-7pm...
About those caffein tablets it's in 0.1gramme..i took four in one time today at the lecture hall to prevent myself from drowsiness...but somehow i still felt so darn sleepy during the lecture..i felt like losing the stamina..i dont know why,the topic was interesting but i still feel drowsy and i sat in the 1st row so i wont fell a sleep but i did...darn..Just cant help myself..i needed the lecture notes bcoz in the russian textbook the classifications are different..darn..

I knew it s bcoz of my late night sleep and the nap in the evening making me tired during the day but i had no choice!How i wished tht the day has more than 24 hours..then i can sleep,clean my things,chat,study,rewrite notes!!cook good meals too!

sigh....

Makan !so we makan !to cure depression..go out with friends and makan!!

With the winter ended ,Hitler's birthday was here,making its mark on the calendar that the semester is halfway to its end..All of us *i mean most of us who tagged along was suffering from what we called*holiday fever*

Holiday fever
main complaints
-feeling sick inside but with no manifestations on the superficial
-homesick
-thoughts about past a lot
-handfuls of loved ones in the mind
-urges to call home
-no mood to do whatever they are doing
-addictions to laughter that shared by friends
-feeling hopeless
-loneliness
-amimic face /maybe face pulled down..(sorta like doggy pity face)haha
-overeating or decreased appetite..
-music one louder than usual to drown the quiet night
-missing someone whom they loved deeply and more than usual
-everything done wasnt right..
-feeling pathethic

other complications
-fever(low immune system)
-infections
-sore throat
-kaki tempang(mind are not there while doing work so he injured the leg)lol
-gastric ulcers or obesity..

Differential diagnose
-love sick
-REAL depression
-REAL diseases
-over-playing of computer games
-MALASITIS

Treatments
lets go out hang with some great friends here
making jokes,smoking shisha,have some good food,watch some movies,go jogging with our bunch of family here since the real ones are far ..
but they will be always in our hearts despite the distance and great friends will always acompany us here..just to fill up some love in our hearts..
but still in the end only the real cure will be the BIG break in the summer when everyone gets their ticket and go home to where their hearts belong..

as for me my heart has been trained to endure this sickness and get over it..plus there s always someone who will support me on my way...
i love ya'all

Bowling first time in Moscow!!haha

The day started in slow motion..with our teacher late for the class,few hours waiting for her..then we have to deal with her gruelsome questions..for the final of this cycle neurology!I must get my zachuuttttt!!!!
I did it in the end..
we all went home then prepare for the bowling game!yes!!Had lots of fUn!!
Zak .he threw his bowling ball to the next lane!!so funny....hahah..it s the first time i m seeing it..believe me ..i laugh like hell!!
DUDE!!