Witness of natural birth..got me feeling emo..

It was late in the afternoon or shall we call it evening..the class was supposed to start at 1.30 pm but suddenly at about 330pm our teacher finally came..asked us to change and get ready to see a natural child birth..

and so we went up stairs,..while waiting,one lady was having cramps and it s painful because we can hear her moaning in pain.contractions in first period of birth activity(gosh i hope the terms are correct coz direct translations from russian lang)
for every 10 mins her contractions lasted for 15-20 seconds..but her cervix wasnt ready and it wasnt fully open..perhaps tht time when we were there it s only 3-4cm..

they fixed an ecg electrod to monitor the fetus s heart rate..
Then my teacher finally appear..and we went to the labour room..
Push mom push..hehehehe..
saw the head v tiny fine hairs in mucous like layers of fluids.
but the baby s head was lil too large..so snips oblique to enlarge the promeshnosti
then the baby s head is out but it s shoulder was stucked..using hands managed to get it out..then accidently the baby swallowed the amniotic fluid which was greenish due to perhaps chronic hypoxy or infections intraunterine..clamped the umbilical n cut it..

the mother was smiling..but the baby cried a little only..she s so beautiful and cute..took out the placenta and make sure it s whole..clean the baby girl and weighed it..3.1kg
i was really happy and joyful to witness such event..

O n G department....

The class started a lil late .Like usual we all took bus to konkova ,then walked a lil and reached another busstop..And took bus number 72(trolley bus)..Cant help but to notice a florist there..The pink trimmed roses are simply irresistible!

we changed in to our surgery costumes and go up all the way ..then we went to the surgery room to witness a caesarian section birth..

the mother seemed to be relaxed and happy..As if there s no pain at all while smiling ,she looked around in her glasses looking at what the nurses and staff were doing..

Her belly was huge like water melon with numerous stretch marks from the symphi.pubis up to the popka...

then he nurses cleaned the abdomen and covered em up v cloths..The surgeon then make an incision about 15cm in length..On the area above syphi pubis.

First it was the skin,then we can see the M.rectus abd. and they cut tru it to get to the uterus..then finally..we can see the uterus in purplish colour then they make another incision ..blood gushed out like fountain and stained nurses costumes

they pulled out the baby s butt first then lastly the head coz of the baby s positions =main reasons this procedure needed to be done...

they clip the umbilical cord and cut it off .took the baby to weighing machine and poke it all over making the move to make it take the first breath clean the mouth n nose..on a cold iron tray.while the nurses checking for the placenta

when they sew the mom up layers by layers and lastly do the cosmetic swov on the skin while other 2 nurses took the baby and showed it to the mother then took it into other room on the iron tray..to clean and feed it..

COOL!!

A boozzeee for the day..nothing so great inside

Today nothing mcuh happened but one thing i know though..i dont feel as good inside but i do feel good on the outside...a big booze for me whenever a russian guy walks by and say WHoa when he turned and checked me out..cool..at least i look alright..or err..IS THERE SOMETHING ON MY FACE?STAINS OR SMTG?HUUHHHHH!!

MASSAD 06 the bad annual dinner!!

The sunday started late and i missed my mass due to late night sleep on saturday...but it indeed started well with a smile on my face in the morning..having steph in the room is like a blessing..=)

Then Neilson came with the church buletins like usual*a reminder of me missing the church mass*hehe....he told me tht steph will need to go earlier in the other bus..i wasnt so happy bout it.Then came swan ling n her roommate and i helped them to get their make up done..

and they all left me for the function.When the time came,Gerard knocked on my door.
but the shitty bus wasnt on schedule..we waited in the windy ,sunny day outside for like 1h 30 mins..i started to feel sick again with tht throbbing migraine starting..
Edwin went to the apteka n bought me the paracetamol.I swallowed them dry..then in the bus the heater in the bus was on..burning my legs near there..

We were late when we got there..no space for us to put the jackets also have to bring them in..the hall was so darn small the seats was damn !!so damn thight!no space to move around or comfy is out of the question...

then the food in the menu they sounded like promising
but when thy finally arrive we have to share all
one ikea plate of spagethi v half plate occupied by other dish and STILL we need to share with other 4 people..wat is this shit!!we all went home hungry tht night with steph sleeping and her stomach growling!!HUnger after dinner!!stupid !!

the soup was horible too!!who add corns in kanji soup haa!!tatse so weird!!and the fruits are all rotten !!are we dogs!!i wonder where the money goes!!!

no point dressing up for such event wasting money and time...

furthermore i sat far from my gang..i hate tht..
i have no good things to say about the anuual dinner...F****ed up it really is!so i m just honest here.........

my life is in a blur today..

i attended Lina's birthday party..as the days gone by too fast,my mind was focused only on two things now..
it s the coming year end exams..and also about the special meeting..
making me feeling really nervous and excited at the same time..

Nothing much really happened today.but i was thankful to be given this short break from uni and hospital cycles..coz i was losing it a little since the previous cycle..

I cant help but feeling guilty everytime i ate a lot more than usual..i think i m infected with the Stupid girls syndrome like the one PINK have been singing about..
come one Jo,i only ate like wat..2bowls of curry mee,2pieces of tht super fatteningly yummy choc cake and some snack no big deal laaa.ok?

darn i hope i m not falling into the category in which those girls talk only about their weight and obsessed with fatness on their bodies..erm..i think perhaps i did tht al the time..

but as i see there are so much of beauty in the world not just the ones which meet the eyes but deeper ones!and i also learnt tht love can also blind us and makes us think tht the other one is heavenly!yeah!

Mini minie more?!and beautiful eyes?

ysterday was a heavy day. but it went by just as fast. patient told me that i have beautiful eyes.haha..paiseh ha..coz all she can see was my eyes under the mask and surgery suit.

gosh i m late.

------------------------------will add to this later---------------730 am may 4 2006
then we have this mini exam to make sure we know how to make diagnose based on our theorical classes for these whole 2weeks...
I was rushing to finish my patient's history and managed to pass it up on time...
I was lucky to get a female patient with acute gastritis..well at least its the diagnose i made upon the *ostitatsia* so i got my marks and WELL DONE!..tht night me and Fir and such good time at the Sinbad cafe eating our dinner..
tomorrow till tuesdays will be holiday!!yay!

well these few days ,i got real bad ass pulsating migraine on the right temporal of my head ..i have no idea what triggered it..perhaps my emotional stress...lets not think about it olright?we still have paracetamol and aspirins to the resQ!!!

all i can give to u is friendship..

i m just a friend

Dont know what s wrong with our exs,
especially u..

When they were your bf ,
they never appreciate you,
They throw tantrums,
they scream and shouted at you,
they hit you,gripped on your wrists,
so hard tht it was bruised with finger marks,
one had other girl in his heart too..

another had their parents looked down
on your mom and dad,
what they did ,
tht they need to suffer such disgrace?
in fact why want to hurt them
when they loved me so much?
for fuck sake they are my parents
u r talking to!!

when things are ok,
we had our dinner together,
which was made by my two hands
but they nv said it s nice,
you clean their bathtub,
even if u were their guest in the hostel,
but their blockmates make them dirty,
shared lots of good friends
but when we broke up
they took sides...

but all that was over now,
i m as free as a bird
my mind is peaceful and willingly to fall,
to freely love someone else,
i am relieved...tht i can get out from this
before it s too late..

i can still offer friendships,
i can offer u my hand when u r in need,
we can hang around talking bout good ol times,
we can go on separate ways and be happy ,
free...and always together as friends..

but not when u r acting like a jerk,
havent your parents taught u well?
sarcasm isnt the way to make things right,
and tht hitting a girl wasnt a thing to do..

i cant give u more than friendship
No matter what you want...
let s look back at things
u had done to mess this up..
dont need to make promises
because when i left u
i already gave up
there s no more love left in my heart
but pure friendship..
u can take it or leave it..

so dont hurt me ,
and act like assholes to me,
i dont deserve this!!
all i asked for was friendship and fairness,
nothing more nothing less,
i had been too patient
with your bad ass attitude..
i had enough!i m sick of this..

let me go on with my life,
but i will always be there when u needed me
to lend a hand or to share our thoughts
to have some fun or to cry on my shoulder
yes i can give u all this
as long as u promised me a true friendship...
coz it s all i can give....
i m leaving all behind
and taking with me only
the good ol times
trying to forget why it ended...

so i m beggging u please
dont hurt me again...
i m just a friend
so please be fair and treat me like one..
if u cant accept this..
just say the word and i will leave..
i m just a friend