SAYONARA to my uni life....loved it and hated it..

Finally finished my med school.
But somehow not very pleased with myself.

I got a shock the other day seeing my ex-fiance's wedding photo on facebook.com.
It was just few months away but i didnt know he married another girl.
I guess it was just not meant to be.
It wont be mature of me to bash him on my blog but where else can i bash him up other than my own blog!!??lol
Anyway, he was this egoistic man who thinks that other people are stupid and lackers. Then he made me feel insecure alot by making remarks about how i look, remarks about breaking up (even if its a small matter) he has to win the arguement everytime!selfish! and
Basically i cant tolerate being with him too long...there you go..
So i am slightly happy for him as he found his pair who can tolerate his attitude.
I wonder who can!??But of course i am dissapointed by his actions deep inside but i felt that i let him go long before i saw this picture. Feeling nothing more than abit of dissapointment.

About the exams and graduation day..It was long wait for this moment but i dont feel satisfied as i cant share this moment with people i care about most.
But i am truly blessed as i know who cared for me and sacrificed for me..
I wana thank my family, friends and unimates for supporting , caring, loving ,helping me while being overseas.
To my roomies and ex roomies , i m sorry for being crazy time to time (hahah) and thanks for being patience with me. Sharing things and living together wasnt easy. But now it s time to say goodbye u ll see me next time as MO..MUAHAHHAHHA!
To wenli thanks a million just cant express how much thanks for being there, for maNjaing me for doing my hair, bla bla coming to resQ...PINK pig to resq
Though i know u tried ur best but still cant attend my graduation u went for the rehearsal..lol..
Try to be patience and be cheerful always.MUAKsss

There are so many things to share in thoughts, experience and knowledge but i guess it s better for you all(juniors) to learn them yourself in your own way.
SAYONARA RSMU!

3days countdown

WOw, i ve been so busy lately. I rarely cook nowadays. Just tumpang my friends place and eat.(-_-)
The 2nd stage of exam wasnt as difficult as i thought it would be but time was swift and the hall was overly packed with the 6th years.
Now the final stage...finally the final of all finals..
Though i m worried and nervous, i m feeling a little numb and tired of the long exams..
But i got myself a kimono top(at last something new for such a long time) after the 2nd exam..It s hard to find smtg my size here..Most shops only sell oversized ones.
I cant wait to finish the exam and rest.
I am sad to leave this place, this country and my friends here but at the same time very anxious to go further...to the next chapter...

Song of the day.

Few days to countdown..Some things i just cant forget..

Since i sold the bed, we rearranged the place and it is now more comfy and spacious.

Yesterday thinking i had some extra cash in my hands , went out to apteka and bought tonometer and termometer for future use.But only to realise my atm card was up to no good...
Wenli got me stethoscope rappaport as gradution gift.THANKS BUDDY!Though least expected, i am glad and thankful.
Through ups and downs, she shared many same views as i do.

The idea of sexy pastor's wife again came into my mind while browsing through for new music video online in youtube.com.
Dont know what other people think of her and her status. But personally i was irked. Especially when this particular pastor is the favorite idol among many students here...

A friend told me that our God never dissapoint us but Man does.

Finally got ticket Egpyt airline and flying back on 29th july. pretty late but i wanted to settle everything and make amends with everything here before i leave.

Though there is someone i find hard to forgive since she betrayed me some time ago, i became different person and learnt my lesson on trust the hard way.

The innocent face and voice make me wana vomit. I forgave her once, i forgave her twice even when i heard ppl telling me she has been saying things behind my back but i brushed it off, i even forgave her when she left me scar next to my left eye.It was one time, she walked past hurriedly, her jacket /movement,somehow the chair just fell on me while i was eating dinner on the floor and the sharp end missed my left eye by 1cm!! I was bleeding profusely from the deep cut but she walked away.
When i returned from the apteka, i found her telling our friends it was an accident and that i shouldnt blamed her or hurt her!! DAmn , i didnt even have any bad intentions but only to forgive her! Not only that she pretend to be scared and took on hiding in other friends room.And since then she always having a friend protecting her and following back to our room as if i m gonna jump and kill her whenever she return!!But this wasnt the worst to come....
We definitely cant judge a person by the cover!I still cant forget how she lied to the whole batch saying i bought papers(physics exam) from Bad A$% Indians ppl. Even after i confronted her and explained to her she was mistaken( i really thought she misunderstand me at tht time-gosh how foolish)she didnt even apologised. I added that she should explain to everyone about it that she was mistaken.

But somehow the next day , she told everyone the bigger lie-she told pp that i threatened her by using those bad A#@ Indian ppl to F**" her up just because she claimed that she told the truth about me and that her life was in danger!
Almost everyone ganged up sgainst me that time i still remember vividly -the day of LAtin exam. Even if there were some bystanders who knew what really happened, they can just sympathise but in the end , pp just prefer to join the major side anyway...
Her friends(who used to be my friends too before they took on her side) protecting her as if she was this lil rabbit innocently hunted by superevil witch!!
It was hard, rough time for me.Imagine losing all your friends-many those which i introduced to her as well. But i bet she dont care. Everywhere i looked i see doubts and disgust on faces, i lost respect from my batchmates just because of a lie...Some even sarcastically scolded me-hey u bought papers??you always friend with bad INdians aa??
even if i defended myself and explained-do u think they ll believe my side of story at tht time?? pointless so I dont feel i needed to explain anything, if u think i m such a corrupted person then you arent my friend anymore-you dont know my heart and where i stand. i Prayed hard some day this will be over and pp will come to realise how foolish they were to trust this *****and open their eyes widely.
So those who read this beware of people who looks innocent they might be the biggest wolf!

Things were never the same after that.It was over and long forgotten by others but to me, how can i ever forget this? Thanks to her i lost faith and trust in friendship. I am cold and snobbish or bad tempered if someone doesnt know me they might use these words to describe me. But who cares!!Only time can prove and show me the real friends are..
It might be nearer to the end of my uni life. But i wish to share my experience to younger naive people but i just cant stop being overwhelmed by the dramas and triumphs from the chapters of my life here. Take notes, and learn from the proven path.I m definitely looking forward for future nonetheless.

So it goes..

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

Many things on my mind

last night i dreamt of waterfall on a small mountain. The height of the mountain was moderate-something that i can climb and easy to conquer. The waterfall was clear and looks beautiful. Along with some friends, we climbed up together and enjoy the water sprays on our face whenever the wind blows.

Every dream has its own meaning. Here is what i found out.
Waterfall

Water generally represents the unconscious and the emotions. A waterfall is a positive dream symbol that suggests a cleansing of negative emotions or psychological issues. Just a simple visualization or a daydream of standing in a waterfall makes a person feel energized and refreshed. If the waterfall in your dream is overwhelming or too powerful for you to enjoy, it may represent emotional energy and unconscious drives that are very difficult to effectively cope with on the conscious level.

So for me, i was standing over the waterfall and then climbed the mountain.