Fu Yo!All are crazy on the last day of Psychiatry cycle!

It was snowing not so heavily.As we walked to class,we cant help bu to notice how high the snow on the side walk.They were higher than us..whoa..someone could just sink into them..

We waited for the teacher as usual*sheesh*
the we studied and had a short break,we took lots of pictures..and had lots of fun in the class room..
Then we invited a patient to our class room.
She said she can hear voices of her lover who was a criminal..She felt he haunts her a lot,stopping her from her sleep,her from taking meals and going out to buy food.
It all started in 1988 and the disease went on until now..She said certain drugs increase the voices and sometimes the voices may change but she knew it ;s from the same man...
It sounded freaky but nonetheless very interesting case this is for our studies..
any way,on the way home we enjoyed ourselves by taking lots of funny pics...whoa
NICE!

Party time with Russian friends..me?huh?

As i was tired the night before..i woke up late..rushing to dress up and then i went..
Was i suprised to them all there already waiting for me..what was i thinking Russian arent like Malaysian..I thought they would be late too but it seemed tht i m the only one!I am the only one who brought the Malaysian lateness style..
Embaressed,i went it and after wishing the sweet Tuyara and saying i m sorry for being late..
As i sat down i saw whoa!3types of alchohol on the table!Dude!
we started with toast for the birthday girl with white wine..

There were lots of russian food (egg salad,tomatoes and cucumber salad,caviar and cheese spread on bread,pickled persimmons and peaches,some berries,kolbasa in slices,cheese slices,curry chicken,peas salad )

I cant find any drinks that doesnt contain alchohol after i finished my glass of wine..i finished it fast the first time because i hope to add some coke or whatever non alchoholic after the wine ..but i was foolish ..hahaha..

but i like the curry and the caviar n bread! nice!

As time passes by i did enjoy conversations with the girls..though they speak fast in russian language and i ant catch up but it was fun..
They are funny and nice..all of us had good chat but it annoys me that all of them went out for smoke every 30 mins..the first time i went out with them and they offered me a cigarette..

Tuyara saw something in my eyes..She knew i felt disappointed with her..she asked me when we were alone if i m still ok with her smoking ..
i said u are who u are. I knew her long time and i loved her but i definitely dont want to see her smoking and drinking a lot..

Then the second time when the girls offered the smoke i said no again..and Tuyara's best friend,Natasha said to her if u love Jo dont ask her to smoke with u..
Natasha is wonderful..

While we talked time passes and i didnt realised how much i drank till rashes appeared on my elbow fold!
whoa it itched..i stopped drinking..but they kept pouring drinks in my glass..Martini,vodka
Made more toasts also....

Then i went home at about 8pm..they called me and invite to disco..
i rest awhile and went to meet them downstairs..we went there at about 11 pm
The songs played was horrible trance and Russian songs..my god..i m so bored..no hip hop or R and b..but since i paid i tried to enjoy my self..
I wore only bikini tops and many russian guys came over..shouldnt have wore tht anyway...The songs i can t dance to..

since it s Soldier or men's day ,the place was flooded with Russian guys...
then getting tired we went home at about 2 am..Tuyara and Natasha went home with me..
we walked some blocks to go home..i thought they were joking when they said they are gona walk!but we did it!
Natasha sent me home first then only she went to her hostel..she is so nice...
then I was online still chatting ..
Cant believed it..then the next day iwas totally hangover!hahahha
cant believe it tht they invite me to club again today..geesh...i didnt picked up the calls..

Trust or not to trust?

Today after class i went to Konkova by foot..i walked and jogged a little enjoying the cool breeze.It was just 0 celcious..i couldnt resist the charms of the day!As i stopped at the Strella company to pay my internet bills for the next month..I thought of asking for the receipt of the router that i purchased ..but to no vail
coz they cant find the details..what the heck..

Then i went to see Angel and chat with her..whoa..got long story there..nvm la it s not good to remember also might as well not write it down..

It was hurtful for me to be alone nowadays..but it s ok...

Angel told me about her life here and how she cant trust people nowdays..
Yeah i was thinking the exact same thing..how can u truly know tht u can trust tht person?what if one day your friend whom u confide in and trusted betray you or have been doing tht all along..?i got tht experience once in my 1st year with my roommate..we were so close to each other..but she betray me all the way..i dont even know that..Naive..
But it was past now i have to be smarter now..so to believe in ppl or not?It s a choice to make ..i better learn to see ppl with my open conscience not with my blinded heart..

whoa!cool psychiatry ward!

the picture above isnt relevant to what i m about to write.Its just merely a decoration

I went to the psychiatry ward today..
In the morning we took bus to get to Metro Konkova..from there we transited to Metro Shabolovskaya..then we took a tramvai (trolleybus)to the destination
This is the second class tht we attended
Then from the busstand we walked few blocks to get there..
The place was huge with red painted buildings .They resembles the red square somehow with little twist of white, out of place, kind of theme..hehe..
There are stray dogs everywhere..
And of course people in treatment everywhere..
All of us sort of afraid of them..
Then we entered the our classroom. AS we walked through the ward to get to the classroom,we saw lots of women in all sizes and age..
Some were looking at the ceiling for nothing,some just stared at us,some welcomed us,some were talking to themselves,some were having tea,some were crying...
We were really freaked out at first..my friend made a joke saying eh maybe our teacher is one of them..who knows!?hadja!like tht also can say one..
then we studied and learnt about the classifications of Disorders of perceptions
This topic branches into 3 main subparts
But mainly it s difficult to distinguish between Delusions and Hallucinations
Hallucinations are mostly about disorders in making out what the reality shows and how the person sees them in their minds
But delusions are toatally out of the world.Things tht arent there are said to be seen or felt..
It amazing to see how our minds play tricks on us!

Then came the first patient
She said she cant feel her face ...her face was gone!we are shocked!
but as we see her ,her face is there but expressionless..
we asked her to touch her face she said she cant touch it or feel it
then we asked her where did her face go? she said she dont know!
we continued with a question *what u think we see on your face if its gone?*
U see my face as amorphic figure,she answered..
whoa freaky!Delusion she has

Then came the 2nd patiient of the day..
She told us tht her mother has control over her body..Tht some things she did and felt was made by her revengeful mother on her..She felt tht one day,her throat and stomach was burning hot.she blame her mother on tht.
It all started when she was in the womb of her mother,she remembered tht her mother was angry at her father and tried to kill him..Patient then said she grow her arms into her mothers hands and managed to control her actions.thereby stopping the murder to take place..she saved her father from being killed..
So she said when she was born,her mother didnt want to let her out to the world..
her mother stopped pushing but luckily was saved by experienced midwife.As she was born the patient recalled she was a floating soul looking down at her own red baby body and her mother..She didnt want to be born as a baby Until she heard a voice asking her to get into the body or else she will still be born again..She was afraid of the voice she heard*she doesnt know where the voice come from and enter the little body and became alive..since then she believed that she had special and strong magical connection to her mother...
The story was told and it really pulled out the interest in us..
i had a great day today and when i got home i needed to jot this down somewhere..
Here's the best!

Yay!winter is almost over!

Felt really bad today..been thinking too much..
I needed a walk..so i went with a friend to the central of Moscow..Feeling a little high from lack of sleep,somehow i m very excited coz it has been some time since i went there the last time..Nothing so special outside but i heard there are sale of end-season.Hoping to get a white jacket i longed for and some cheap sweaters..
But i got the wihte jacket from Jennyfer whoa!*it's from 1400++Rbles to only 303Rubles)

I m damn lucky plus it s my size!!But it does have a lil dirty spot at the back..but what the heck,i got it any way..Hoping the dirt will come off after i wash them and it did !Fuh!

It really made me the happiest person on earth!
Other than that i went browsing and saw a cute sweat shirt..and a jumper..Good for spring time..got them too..Hmm..maybe the mirror had some thinning effect coz i do look thinner in the mirror when i tried them on..hehehe
coz when i got home i wear them and the first thing Emma said when she saw me was**Jo!U put on some weight dy!!*oh gosh!HUHHUUHHHUUH..Arrowed through my heart dear!

My dear gal,i know dy la..no need to crush me like this la...**but got bigger boobs and more curve at the back too **Luckily she added those words!Or else..i m gonna be running the threadmills again..Haih!~~Dont know if it s good thing..when i was thinner ppl say i m too thin la this la tht la..now i put on weight ..they also commented ..huhhhuuhh..Oh dear!It s winter mah..some more lately got exams so didnt go work or walk around town ma..so mah fat lo..
haih~~~sad nia....But bouncier and juicier bod are mine now!!heh heh heh!

Oh God!I beg U please do end this winter!!

Hmm.. seemed that it s so cold out there nothing much i could do any way..
Don't feel like going out,everyday was like a routine..
i Live my life as a robot..
Every morning i wake up and prepare to go to class.Then i fall asleep during small breaks or will be munching some biscuits.
Then i ll be home..i will have nap then wake up to prepare dinner..
Online awhile ,pondering around...then continue with studies and those heavy Russian medical texts..
then the day will be over..i ll sleep and the next day i m looking forward for interesting things to happen..
For me,most of the days went by just like tht..whoa i cant believe I m here in Moscow for already 4 years!!

Being in love but lonely on Valentine's day was hard to go by...
Well..being charming and all**EH HEM* I did receive some roses and some guys asking for dates..
what to do..I m just not interested in any guy at all...
I think i already gave my heart away to someone i havent meet..
Weird isn't it?To miss him when u havent seen him before in your entire life!
To think of the way he smile makes no sense to me at all!
But somehow i cant seem to control my thoughts..
Oh gosh not back to the Dilemma again..i wana think of positive thoughts only or else it s better to forget it..yeah
I wana forget what s on my mind..
OK back to the recent, even i kept myself a low profile,i cant escape gossips to twirl around me..
How could this be!!I m single and didnt go out with anyone here..I dont stay over in any guys place wat so ever!I covered myself from head to toe nowadays(*_*")OK OK
It s winter and cold..i agree but what i do did seemed to put some interest in some nosy ppl..Oh not some!But many!
IF u got something u wana know about me JUST ask!!Shhheeeessshhh!!
Damn It eh!
These ppl can't just let me go!Low profile=not enough..May God punish them la..i m tired dy thinking bout it..
Coz my image and my name are as important to me u see..so i cant just let it go..
But if i didnt let it go then i ll be crazy and too much time will be wasted..
OK oK
JO U NEED TO RELAX....Cool let it go!OK OK i will....(^_^)YAY!

Come on bring it on!New sem with new cycle i can take u!

Ganbateh JO!I told myself.The day i waited had finally came and how simple the winter break ended.I still felt restless somehow.But i totally agree on being ready and up for the next coming challenges.Be it on my emotions, physical challenges, i m sure to take them.. yeah!
Rows and rows of apartments we walked across to get to the Chidren s hospital.
But luckily we took cab in the morning sometimes.Surely it can burn a hole in my pocket soon...=/
Skin on my hands and lips cracks like the paddy feild mud cracked over the draught..Pain eh!
I did drank lots of fluid and put creams but in this profession i needed to wash my hands at all time. Plus this cycle wasnt named Infectious diseases of children for nothing.
We were asked to wear masks and 2nd layer of temporary lab coat, not allowed to sit on the bed of the sickly child.
It has been few days since i chatted with person close to me but it has been so busy that i rarely think about it.=) but never i forget to misscall or reply messages especially during small breaks ,meal time and before sleep.
Making peace with my mind after small prayer by the bed i ll be sure to be holding my handphone to check for new messages and reply then set the alarm for the next big day!!YAY! zzzzzzzzzz

Brrrr!winter return?oh NO!We thought it was over!

Wow!while walking to university..I felt good about myself..hahahha..so decided to take some pictures with help from my good friend,Fir.

BUt hey,it 's like minus 20 out here..acting cool and took off the hood and smile for the camera..As Fir was also frozen by the coldness of the winter blows,plus she wore thick gloves she cant click the camera in time ..

By the time the pic was taken my toothy grin was gone ..what was left was this frozen freaky smile!!haha but nonetheless still looks ok....

As we walk hand in hand , we saw huge piles of smow everywhere..i mean everywhere!All over the place..every side walks and all along the journey..what u expect,HUh?This place isn't heavenly as it looks like ok?

All white and fluffy.but..yeah right.It aint no heaven on earth!.my cheeks are frozen i can hardly pronounce any words properly..

with fast paces we walked along the slippery path to our university..As we walked ,i cant help but to notice some kids in their winter clothing..hahahahh

they LOoked funny..they cant move their heads and surely cant touch their noses with their hands!Oh but definitely wayyy too adorable...

Then at the library,we waited for a long time eventhough it s just a short queue with two open counters...Darn these Russians they dont even have the scanning system!!Imagine that in med uni !!whoa so outdated!

Plus they are so D*** rude everytime..what i did was keep smiling..who cares! i m getting free textbooks and outta here!!

Fir wanted to have some shaurma at our cafeteria..I dont like the cafeteria..People smoke like there s no tomorrow..err...the whole place looks like a bar to me..It s suppose to be a cafeteria in the first place..with Russian chicks smoking and flirting ..Russian guys drinking tea while their eyes scouting for girls..cheh!Hey Russian boys U dont notice me ka?hahaha..

So there we had our lunch..i ordered a humble hotdog in pita bread...then went home with heavy sack of books we borrowed...