Monster from hell

The monster from hell who has everything!
life is so unfair
this monster seemed to have perfect life.
from top career to her kind and caring husband...
how can God be so unfair!!>>

She seemed to think as if she is the highest power in the universe...
always making people feeling aweful whenever she;s around...

this week is in sync

From the day i started my posting in O n G, i knew i would enjoy this posting much more than other posting.
My boss is such a nice person, collegues are helpful and cooperative.
Nurses are helpful.
But it s just that sometimes i feel resentful towards the gov policy in this sector.
sometimes felt unappreciated in things i do at work.
Otherwise, this job provides me with new experience new things to learn on daily basis, it s fun to learn and do new things everyday..

My small reception was great
not too expensive, most inportantly i know closely all the guests, i felt it useless to invite ppl i dont know or closely related to such a small reception.
So glad most of the people i cared about and miss since i was posted to sp able to attend this small wedding..

my best friends and closest collegues, family members whom i didnt see for such a long time and old friends from afar came and hopefully enjoyed themselves
i think i do look fat in my gown..haha
but as long as my hubby looked good like a korean star , then i m proud..lols..

registered with my man, went to langkawi=all in such a short time!

It was really unexpected how things between me and my guy went
from the start when we dated each other till we were finally registered
things went smoothly
and i hope tht's the way it ll stay

i was post call on the day i got registered
then the next day we went to langkawi via air asia
the hotel was great- beautiful beach and scenery
but langkawi has nothing much to offer
and i was tired all the while

then when we came back, things went to usual pace again
oncalls and sleepless nights

i cant help but to think that when is this gonna be over..
i just feel so tired and sick of working in this field..
currently looking for new alternatives -in short word for another job..

in this married life, i never felt so attached to someone before,needing him 24/7
to hear his voice , to hear him sing over the radio
to see him enjoying his meal
to wash his hair
to cover him with blanket when he was sleeping
to feel his skin on my hands
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BACK TO USUAL PHASE

my life here in sp was basically sucking the life juice out of me
though time to time
i ll be trying my best to adjust time for myself-swimming, facials and ect
then other important people in life-family,my man,friends
then my finance
somehow with housemanship
all things are difficult to juggle up
need to fix all things
in the end i ended up exhausted, no improvement in my studies
and my room is a mess!
Hardly i can admit tht i m in fact a messy person
i mostly think of myself as the type who will put hings in order and fixated
clothes in the cupboard and dirty ones in the bucket
i used to have a motto back in my uni days living with 2 other roomies in small room
all things which are hidden or well placed wont be messy
as u cant see them lying around and it s easier to find them when u need them
But now i come back to room full of unwashed clothes
i have to really admit to this guilt
i was always buying new cheap collar shirts and undies ,not to mention socks
as i was reluctant to wash them when i have free time
my freetime meaning after 6 pm off work/off oncalls...
i ll go swimming, have nice meal with friends or movie..but the next day,
i will still feel restless..

not to mention there will be some idiots who admit to ward midnight for no good reasons
dont know what to say about them..
like for example
someone who was having diarrhea for 3-4 days but came only at midnight on the 4thday
if u think it s so serious and need to be admitted, then shouldnt u seek earlier treatment instead of coming to us at midnight
when acute patients with real emergencies need us the most?
most probably just wasting our time..coz the next day they ll be sent home..

well, i finished paeds now..in surgical
bit of a suck to day..
nurses not helpful..some MO come only in the morning to see the rest of the pts..
then ask me ..anyone died yet>?>
haha//..

my salary was higher than many ppl but then and again..paying for my study loan
n myvi already booked up 60 percent..really shitty..
somehow time to time i d look back n wonder why i choose this career...
damn.

forgot to add in

I got my pay and quickly bought my car..
i waited for whole long 3 weeks!
then it arrived!
blue myvi..with nice number plate according to my birthdate 8138..
i loved it..
i drove back to home town whenever i had the chance
paying about 600plusplus a month is ok
but no matter how much i earn, the money at the end of month was jus insuficient.
i didnt buy much or eat much
i ate at hospital..trust me food sucks
but better than nothing..
other than that...erm..no cuti lo..
no weekend off..weekend still need to oncall 36hours..
then if not oncall then ok , can go back after round..

poking babies with needles ,being vomitted, touched meconium
and whatever fluid are now norm.. no feeling to them..
just subjects for work..things to do..
to settled before going back.

though there are some interesting cases ive seen...i just wonder
if God ever existed...how come so many bad things can happen..

starting to enjoy nicu

but then i m gonna leave..haha..life slike tht
i had hard time adapting to my working life but now that i m getting jiggy with it
i m soon to leave the department.