Sometimes it's just too much to handle

With such hectic job in my hands, juggling between newly married life and chasing my dreams is kindda hard.
Initially i thought with him by my side, things will look rosier.
Have to admit i was not realistic enough to realise what was coming into my life.
Not only i still have to work, go on calls, fulfill my part as a daughter, spend time with him, i have more and more debts to pay.

How naive i was, not realising such things would come to me.
Guess honeymoon was over too soon for me.

In modern days,most men only work to support themselves at the same time expecting women to pay their own bills, yet need to keep up with household demands.
Our responsibility grows larger every time the world changes.
Advancing in my financial side, more debts i will have to endure.
The further i go, more things i 'll have to fullfill...

It seemed like never ending of countless sacrifice after another.
Yet, never once i asked for more except some tokens of romanticism and appreciation time to time. So that i wouldnt forget the main reason of all these hardships i have to go through. Simple gestures showing he cared will be more than enough to remind me to continue walking on the hot sand.

But most of the time, he would suprise me with unexpected doubts. They make me think twice and adding fear in me, burning my confident in things i do , my sacrifices.
To add more insult to this, the are more planning for sacrifices to be made for the better future of both of us.

Time to time, i live in doubts but sometimes ignorance is bliss. Walking the unseen path? I am afraid, when can he one say prove to me that all these sacrifices i made and more to be made will be all worth it?

I can only pray.

Monster from hell

The monster from hell who has everything!
life is so unfair
this monster seemed to have perfect life.
from top career to her kind and caring husband...
how can God be so unfair!!>>

She seemed to think as if she is the highest power in the universe...
always making people feeling aweful whenever she;s around...

this week is in sync

From the day i started my posting in O n G, i knew i would enjoy this posting much more than other posting.
My boss is such a nice person, collegues are helpful and cooperative.
Nurses are helpful.
But it s just that sometimes i feel resentful towards the gov policy in this sector.
sometimes felt unappreciated in things i do at work.
Otherwise, this job provides me with new experience new things to learn on daily basis, it s fun to learn and do new things everyday..

My small reception was great
not too expensive, most inportantly i know closely all the guests, i felt it useless to invite ppl i dont know or closely related to such a small reception.
So glad most of the people i cared about and miss since i was posted to sp able to attend this small wedding..

my best friends and closest collegues, family members whom i didnt see for such a long time and old friends from afar came and hopefully enjoyed themselves
i think i do look fat in my gown..haha
but as long as my hubby looked good like a korean star , then i m proud..lols..