Ultimate quest-Looking for a piece of heaven on earth

AS mo, MOm to be, wife, bla bla

2011-05-30T17:34:00.001+04:00

OMG, it has been long forgotten this lil blog of mine!!
Just wanna update bit here and there.

Working as MO in a district hospital at my hometown is hard.
Seeing very ill patients daily. Sometimes, not sure how to manage them.
They can drop like flies.

Being preggy and working oncalls are hard.
I never felt so strong yet so lethargic at the same time.
But the thoughts of my lil precious coming to the world brings my will forward and continue working.

I have to admit there are times i just felt like giving up, treating patients half heartedly.
But i dislike the guilt i felt when i went home. Thinking that person could be someone's love, father, mother, sister. Thus i tried my best but there are really really testing times when i just wana pack my bags and just leave the hospital to back to my bed.

My house had finally became a home for both of us.
Loving each moments there together.
loving the green grass , our dog Bobby.
weekends off have been wonderful here , at home.
We have almost everything we need.
Perhaps not luxury things, not the beautiful things but we have enough..=))

Now i m just waiting to pop. EDD in July 2011
Bought all the things she might need including wow...lots of clothes.
I found a shop selling baby , toddlers cloths for RM 2 per piece. But need to carefully choose your money worth and wash it thoroughly before can use.
We also bought a beautiful baby playpen cum bed...

But i think if things dont change at my work place, i might just consider to apply for transfer.
Environment here is not helping me to grow and develop as a MO.
We are all too tired........zzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

New house almost ready...love it

2010-09-19T06:16:00.004+04:00

The house is situated between 2 main crossroads to Penang and back to Kedah state.
It 's a corner intermediate lot with small piece of land.
Love the huge balcony and the masterbedroom.

Hoping i can spend my days there, need few more pieces of furniture...hehe..

Finally, loving the emergency dept

2010-04-06T15:24:00.002+04:00

Thank God, medical was finally over, i am really enjoying the new dept- emergency...
Everything need to be done fast and learning to make fast decision.

Loving time i have for my hubby and friends
Boss was greatest, friends here...wonderful

Now just waiting for my home to be renovated and cant wait to move in..=)

Sometimes it's just too much to handle

2010-03-14T18:33:00.002+03:00

With such hectic job in my hands, juggling between newly married life and chasing my dreams is kindda hard.
Initially i thought with him by my side, things will look rosier.
Have to admit i was not realistic enough to realise what was coming into my life.
Not only i still have to work, go on calls, fulfill my part as a daughter, spend time with him, i have more and more debts to pay.

How naive i was, not realising such things would come to me.
Guess honeymoon was over too soon for me.

In modern days,most men only work to support themselves at the same time expecting women to pay their own bills, yet need to keep up with household demands.
Our responsibility grows larger every time the world changes.
Advancing in my financial side, more debts i will have to endure.
The further i go, more things i 'll have to fullfill...

It seemed like never ending of countless sacrifice after another.
Yet, never once i asked for more except some tokens of romanticism and appreciation time to time. So that i wouldnt forget the main reason of all these hardships i have to go through. Simple gestures showing he cared will be more than enough to remind me to continue walking on the hot sand.

But most of the time, he would suprise me with unexpected doubts. They make me think twice and adding fear in me, burning my confident in things i do , my sacrifices.
To add more insult to this, the are more planning for sacrifices to be made for the better future of both of us.

Time to time, i live in doubts but sometimes ignorance is bliss. Walking the unseen path? I am afraid, when can he one say prove to me that all these sacrifices i made and more to be made will be all worth it?

I can only pray.

Monster from hell

2009-12-31T16:35:00.003+03:00

The monster from hell who has everything!
life is so unfair
this monster seemed to have perfect life.
from top career to her kind and caring husband...
how can God be so unfair!!>>

She seemed to think as if she is the highest power in the universe...
always making people feeling aweful whenever she;s around...

this week is in sync

2009-10-28T15:39:00.003+03:00

From the day i started my posting in O n G, i knew i would enjoy this posting much more than other posting.
My boss is such a nice person, collegues are helpful and cooperative.
Nurses are helpful.
But it s just that sometimes i feel resentful towards the gov policy in this sector.
sometimes felt unappreciated in things i do at work.
Otherwise, this job provides me with new experience new things to learn on daily basis, it s fun to learn and do new things everyday..

My small reception was great
not too expensive, most inportantly i know closely all the guests, i felt it useless to invite ppl i dont know or closely related to such a small reception.
So glad most of the people i cared about and miss since i was posted to sp able to attend this small wedding..

my best friends and closest collegues, family members whom i didnt see for such a long time and old friends from afar came and hopefully enjoyed themselves
i think i do look fat in my gown..haha
but as long as my hubby looked good like a korean star , then i m proud..lols..

registered with my man, went to langkawi=all in such a short time!

2009-07-15T16:47:00.002+04:00

It was really unexpected how things between me and my guy went
from the start when we dated each other till we were finally registered
things went smoothly
and i hope tht's the way it ll stay

i was post call on the day i got registered
then the next day we went to langkawi via air asia
the hotel was great- beautiful beach and scenery
but langkawi has nothing much to offer
and i was tired all the while

then when we came back, things went to usual pace again
oncalls and sleepless nights

i cant help but to think that when is this gonna be over..
i just feel so tired and sick of working in this field..
currently looking for new alternatives -in short word for another job..

in this married life, i never felt so attached to someone before,needing him 24/7
to hear his voice , to hear him sing over the radio
to see him enjoying his meal
to wash his hair
to cover him with blanket when he was sleeping
to feel his skin on my hands
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BACK TO USUAL PHASE

2009-04-22T11:48:00.003+04:00

my life here in sp was basically sucking the life juice out of me
though time to time
i ll be trying my best to adjust time for myself-swimming, facials and ect
then other important people in life-family,my man,friends
then my finance
somehow with housemanship
all things are difficult to juggle up
need to fix all things
in the end i ended up exhausted, no improvement in my studies
and my room is a mess!
Hardly i can admit tht i m in fact a messy person
i mostly think of myself as the type who will put hings in order and fixated
clothes in the cupboard and dirty ones in the bucket
i used to have a motto back in my uni days living with 2 other roomies in small room
all things which are hidden or well placed wont be messy
as u cant see them lying around and it s easier to find them when u need them
But now i come back to room full of unwashed clothes
i have to really admit to this guilt
i was always buying new cheap collar shirts and undies ,not to mention socks
as i was reluctant to wash them when i have free time
my freetime meaning after 6 pm off work/off oncalls...
i ll go swimming, have nice meal with friends or movie..but the next day,
i will still feel restless..

not to mention there will be some idiots who admit to ward midnight for no good reasons
dont know what to say about them..
like for example
someone who was having diarrhea for 3-4 days but came only at midnight on the 4thday
if u think it s so serious and need to be admitted, then shouldnt u seek earlier treatment instead of coming to us at midnight
when acute patients with real emergencies need us the most?
most probably just wasting our time..coz the next day they ll be sent home..

well, i finished paeds now..in surgical
bit of a suck to day..
nurses not helpful..some MO come only in the morning to see the rest of the pts..
then ask me ..anyone died yet>?>
haha//..

my salary was higher than many ppl but then and again..paying for my study loan
n myvi already booked up 60 percent..really shitty..
somehow time to time i d look back n wonder why i choose this career...
damn.

forgot to add in

2009-02-12T16:15:00.002+03:00

I got my pay and quickly bought my car..
i waited for whole long 3 weeks!
then it arrived!
blue myvi..with nice number plate according to my birthdate 8138..
i loved it..
i drove back to home town whenever i had the chance
paying about 600plusplus a month is ok
but no matter how much i earn, the money at the end of month was jus insuficient.
i didnt buy much or eat much
i ate at hospital..trust me food sucks
but better than nothing..
other than that...erm..no cuti lo..
no weekend off..weekend still need to oncall 36hours..
then if not oncall then ok , can go back after round..

poking babies with needles ,being vomitted, touched meconium
and whatever fluid are now norm.. no feeling to them..
just subjects for work..things to do..
to settled before going back.

though there are some interesting cases ive seen...i just wonder
if God ever existed...how come so many bad things can happen..

starting to enjoy nicu

2009-02-12T16:07:00.001+03:00

but then i m gonna leave..haha..life slike tht
i had hard time adapting to my working life but now that i m getting jiggy with it
i m soon to leave the department.

summary of these few months

2008-12-06T05:33:00.002+03:00

One of the most memorable weeks in my life these few months
is the induction
The next one will be working days
Life has been so busy these few months
I was trying hard to adapt to new place, new people and new responsibility.
Induction was great , made famous for the 3 min speech.
Making new friends and new circles are great.
Feeling ectasy in doing so just playing around while giving 100 % in things we do.
One thing i learn from induction was team work..
So important is the ability to function as a team makes my team the winner of MAlam mesra.
Sumazau dance started with wayang kulit telling how the history start and i was the
choosen maiden of the comunity coming out as the suprise of the night.
Being away from loved ones was hard but not as difficult , i prevously were studying overseas for 6 years and got used to it..However seeing how other people's family send food,new clothes makes me go envious.
Overall induction was great, improve my stamina for housemanship which requires me to
wake up at 5 am and on calls.

Hmm..now about the new responsibility, Hosp. Sultan Abdul Halim was fully aircon
and so far i was only in the Paediatric department. Not much i ve seen around here but my own ward, Melur 1
Kids are always crying, screaming..
Blood and IV to set up was previously difficult for me..but i do hope my adaptation duration will be over and short soon..as i m feeling anxious everytime i walk toward the ward in the morning
I ll be there early and earlier than the rest because i need more time to be ready
as i m still new and many things to prepare.
Being jus hard working i guess wasnt enough. i needed more stamina and knowlegde.
Being able to learn new skills daily ,new cases were great and i love being pushed forward.
However, staying alone in the nurse quarters is a bit hard for me as
I feel lonely at times staring at the wall before going to bed.
I have roomies all my life. Now suddenly i was given privilege to stay in privacy and alone , i have difficulties coping with no one to talk to, or go out with.
Of course, i have not much time left after work but sometimes its great to see some one caring for u.
I definitely miss loved ones all the time being away, but i guess it was written in the stars that i wont have much time to spend with them.
I m living on edge of my financial status..havent got my pay.. so poor..and shitty..

Kl for two weeks

2008-10-14T15:41:00.002+04:00

I was in Kl for the past weeks from end of sept until early oct.
For two weeks in didnt water my plants nor hold that 2 year old kid..
But time spent was swift and too fast for me to catch hold.
I was down with fever and chills for about 4-5days.
Hoping really for the transfer to kl for good will work for me..Nothing is certain right now.
Hoping that my choice is the right one too..
Tomorrow shall be another day for test, a test i must pass...
The ultimatum...my driving test..darn!

moles

2008-09-16T09:21:00.002+04:00

WikiPedia Moles

First, check your face for any moles, and then look at the diagram above to identify the number(s) that are a closest match to the moles on your face. Usually, the moles only hold meaning for you if they are prominent and they are the only one. If your face if full of spots, acne or “little” moles, they do not count. When you’ve ascertained which position corresponds to
the mole on your face, look up the meanings listed by numbers below.

Position 1 to 3
As a child, you are somewhat rebellious and a free spirit. You have an innate creativity and work best when you are given a free hand. Generally, your superiors like your avante garde approach to life. If you have a mole here, you are far better off in business and being your own boss rather than working for somebody. What is promising is that you have the luck to be your own boss.

Position 4
You are an impulsive person, often acting with a flamboyance that gives you charisma and a sparkling personality, but you can be difficult when there are too many opinions. You tend to be rather argumentative, but never to the point of holding grudges. This mole tends to give you an explosive temper and should you decide to remove it, you will find yourself becoming calmer and more at peace with the world.

Position 5
A mole above the eyebrow indicates that there is wealth luck in your life, but you will need to earn it and work harder than most people. All the income you make must be carefully kept as there are people who are jealous of you who might attempt to sweet talk you into parting with your wealth. Be wary of those who try to interest you in get-rich-quick schemes. If you
have a mole here, it is advisable not to be too trusting of others. Follow your instincts and be cautious. And never allow other people to control your finances.

Position 6
A mole here indicates intelligence, creativity and skill as an artist. Your artistic talent can bring you wealth, fame and success. It also indicates wealth luck, but this can only be fully realized if you follow your heart rather than stick to conventional means of making a living. Success will come if you are brave.

Position 7
Moles under the eyebrows indicate arguments within the extended family that cause you grief and unhappiness. This will affect your work and livelihood. It is advisable to settle any differences you have with your relatives if you want peace of mind to move ahead.

Position 8
This is not a very good position for a mole. Your financial position will constantly be under strain because of a tendency to overspend. You also have a penchant for gambling. The only thing is you must know when to stop. Meanwhile, someone with a mole here has a tendency to flirt with members of the opposite sex as well as with the same sex. Better be a little discerning where you exert your charms, or you might get into trouble.

Position 9
This mole position suggests sexual and other problems. It is an unfortunate mole and you are well advised to get rid of it. It brings a litany of woes and a parade of problems.

Position 10
A mole here just under the nose indicates excellent descendants luck. You are surrounded by family at all times and will have many children and grandchildren. You have the support of those close to you and will be both materially and emotionally fulfilled.

Position 11
Moles here suggest a tendency to succumb to illness. It is a good idea to have this mole removed especially if it is a large, dark-coloured mole. Otherwise use lots of foundation to cover it.

Position 12
A mole here foretells a successful but also a very balanced life. You are likely to be not just rich, but famous as well. But although you have every opportunity to live the high life, you will have a satisfying home and family life as well. Women with moles here are particularly lucky and tend to be beautiful and glamourous as well.

Position 13
Your children will be a big worry in your life. Your relationship with them is not good. There is nothing much you can do about this except to learn some tolerance.

Position 14
A mole here suggests a vulnerability to food which can be a big problem in your life. You may have allergies against certain foods or you may simply be eating too much.

Position 15
You are a person always on the move and constantly renovating and redesigning your house. You like to be introduced to new things and see new places. You are not happy if you remain in one place for long. You enjoy travel and adventure, and have a very observant eye.

Position 16
You need to be careful when it comes to eating, and also when it comes to your sex life. These are your two biggest problems. You tend to have weight issues which can make you depressed. You enjoy romance, sometimes with more than one person, but because you are a person with some morality, you will feel guilty about it and this will cause you much stress.

Position 17
You will be someone of great social prominence. You are active on the social scene and an excellent conversationalist. There is a tendency to become bigheaded about your success, which could lose you your good name. This will affect you deeply because you draw your confidence and self worth from what others think of you.

Position 18
You are a person always on the move. There is a great deal of overseas travel in your life, but you should take extra care each time you cross the great waters, as your mole prefers you to stay at home.

Position 19
You have money luck and many good friends, so this is a good mole to have. Your weakness is that you tend to succumb to the charms of the opposite sex. In your life, it is this that could get you into hot water, so do cool your ardour!

Position 20
A mole here can be very lucky or very unlucky. If you have a mole here, you are destined either for extreme fame or infamy. You have great flair for creativity and are also highly intelligent, but your talents can be used for both good and bad. You are not a person to be trifled with for you are no pushover and do not forgive and forget easily. This mole is a mark of
someone who will go down in history either as a great or as a tyrant.

Position 21
This is a good mole, as it suggests plenty to eat and drink throughout your life. This mole also brings fame and recognition.

Position 22
Your life is always happy and things go smoothly for you. You could well become a sports superstar if you have the passion for it. Moles at the end of eyebrows also suggest a person of authority and power, so if you are the CEO of a company, you will do very well.

Position 23
You have a high IQ, and you are both brain smart and street smart. You have a highly-developed survival instinct and will lead a meaningful and long life. You will be active until a very old age and will have friends and family around you till the very end.

Position 24
You will achieve fame and fortune in your young age and you are advised to use this period to safeguard your old age, as people with moles here tend to have a harderlife as they get older.

Position 25
You will enjoy good prosperity and recognition luck, but do be careful of excesses. Stay traditional in your attitudes and you will have a long and fruitful life.

Look at your face and check!

Many great things...but.tht one thing...

2008-09-04T11:20:00.002+04:00

It was a great week i took my driving lesson yesterday and had great fun..
But for me to start the journey with 1st gear was ..haha..what can i say, hurm...i tend to go too fast when i start my journey...impatient...
Then i went for job hunting, too bored for my own good staying at home
needed some cash too..Hoping to get a car of my own soon..Hoping that i can use the car before my induction and right after my driving test...woohh..talking bout that, i m pretty nervous..So many things are out of our control it seemed..i hate the feeling of losing control especially in things i deal with..Prayers will calm me down but it seemed like every breath i took i was praying but for something else..or shall i say someone else..
There was one story i read short story indeed.
Once long time ago lived all the feelings in the same island
Sad, happy, knowlegde, ego , and of course Love
Then suddenly the island was sinking...
Sad found a boat and took it, happy took the air balloon and others too have their own way of going away except love..
Love stayed as he shouted for help but happy cant hear him because he was on cloud nine...Love saw Sad but he couldnt help him as he was too sinking deeper into the ocean..
At last came along someone, he took Love in his arms and saved him..
Love said thanks and ask who was this person...and yes he is TIME..
because only time can save Love
Only time can prove Love
Only time to learn about Love
and lastly Only Time can put Love back to its place..
So take time to learn to love and be patient to love.
Well the story was fun but i guess it was a little irrelevant.

I found two jobs -one at a bookstore and another as tuition teacher at kumon..i went today for the bookstore and tomorrow for the kumon, but of course i would prefer to be a parttime tuition teacher rather than working mindlessly in bookstore..unless the supervisor could offer me a proper mind goggling job. I already feel as if fungus growing in my brains right now.

What the heck- proteinuria in med check up report

2008-08-29T06:39:00.004+04:00

Two weeks ago i went for medical check up, then Dr.Hema-someone i knew from my past practical in Hosp. Seberang Jaya she found out that there's proteinuria in my dipstick urine test.
The lab technician wrote nil for all as the next test might be negative as well. But this doc insisted on putting it on the record there stating that i am not that fit but able to work.
I got really upset. As the next urine test and blood tests came out normal and negative for any pathology.
I went again today and the dipstick test is still normal! That doctor is really something!!*angry!

Water flow upwards....

2008-08-26T23:45:00.002+04:00

We , not most of us but some of us are living in a long queue in which the person who cared for me will be behind me. I 'd sometimes turn back but it somehow never connects. So does the person in front of me.
When we been through alot, things will go backwards.
The more you know the more you dont know. You 'll gain wisdom but yet you gain more doubts. You 'll keep asking and continue the search for the truth but yet never satisfied with the answers you found. In the end , you ' ll ask yourself for the answers hoping that you already knew.

Passed first part of driving test

2008-08-18T23:41:00.000+04:00

hey hey..it wasnt hard at all!

My birthday...

2008-08-13T23:33:00.000+04:00

Hmm..the birthday eve was spent with someone..Took me to dinner somewhere for western food. I was really happy that someone remembered and it seemed he did fullfill part of my wish.
Then on the night of 13th, i had dinner with my grandparents and family.
I was alright and thankful we are all still here. That 's the best gift i ve ever got.

Malaysia wasnt the place i remembered

2008-08-12T14:12:00.002+04:00

I ve been back to my hometown for about 2 weeks now. The first day of arrival i rested in my cousin's condo. Ashley looks the same everything was the same but the feeling was slightly different.
I went through a gruesome time during the flight. I went to the airport Domodedova 1pm and took flight 6pm. I reached Cairo, Egypt about 8pm and sat at the Cairo airport untill 5am before heading to Mumbai ,India.
During that time i met a friend from Cameroon. He is studying in Kursk Medical University 5th year student but due to financial problem, he aborted his studies to 6th year.
I got no water to drink or anything to eat but luckily i found my 2 usd in my pocket and bought a bottle of mineral water. We shared the drink and he offered me his russian bun but i was reluctant coz it wasnt enough for him as well..haha..
Finally our passport and tickets were ready (i wonder why this stupid airport kept all our documents-passport n boarding pass) i was worried if they (airport officials) lost our passports!seriously dumb system. They took our passport and ticket of purchase and print the boarding pass 2 hours upon flight...
Then i sat inside the plane in Mumbai, crossing over the terrains houses or flats half built..
Finally i reached KLIA. Dr Choong was kind enough to send me back to my cousin's condo and the next morning was 30th july..what a hectic day..
Rushed to different buildings in putrajaya to settle the MMC, SPA and KKM stuff..Such a long process..but luckily it was done on the same day. The ride back to Penang.
On Wednesday evening, i took ride on bus to Johor meeting Wenli and her family.
It was 2day and 1 night stay at her parent's home. I enjoyed the trip except for the long ride about 9-10 hours in the bus which left my knee joints aching.
And then i was back on saturday. And yesterday 11 aug, i went for my medical check ups , took oath. All for the KKM.
Today i went over to driving school as i need to retake my car license!damn....waste of money and time..but i need it..my mom kept it for me but yet forgot to renew it.
Now i need to study the 500 mcqs...=((

Wow! i guess i ll be eaving Moscow for good this time.

2008-07-27T14:36:00.003+04:00

Though i m happy to leave for some reasons but i m also sad.
I guess the furnitures i have here( bed, table , shelves and etc) are much better than those at home...I m so gonna miss my roomie and friends..and of course the Korean family..No matter how i took them for granted, they are aways there for me until the end. wahhh .....

To do list before going back

2008-07-14T15:51:00.002+04:00

1)take the Moscow river cruise-done that last week with Jenia and Qistin.
weather was great and sunny. The ride costs about 350 roubles. It is a little expensive than i thought it would be.

2)Get a cheap black pump to waste and reserved for special occasion- found and bought one pair of them for only 50 roubles!!wow They looked expensive but yet cost only mere RM 6.

3)Go to the art park- I went there with abang Yip(^_^)haha..took nice pics and thank God it was good weather sunny and windy.

4)I always wanted to go to a theatre but i wasnt so much interested in the what they are showing..Just simply wana have a taste of it..so far havent found a good excuse to go and the idea just stayed at the back of my mind.

5)Go to ismalikovskii one last time..i just went there last saturday..it somehowmade me spent alot whenever i went there , they ll be sure something that i wanted to get. Forexample this week we went there to look for a luggage then instead i bought some souvenirs from the soviet and some matrishka
Now i feel like i needed to get more souvenirs.

6)wana go inside the Kremlin but everytime i got the the red square , i d rather go shopping or go to the MCd and sit there looking over the eternal flame.

7)I always wanted to go around other city in russia as well.. but so far ony been to LEvskii gorod and St pete. Need some more allowance..hehe..so i gave it up.

The weekend was real busy

2008-07-08T00:56:00.002+04:00

Hmm..what did i do on friday...i guess pretty much just being lazy since it was raining all day long.
But Saturday was fun, eventhough it was raining i get to go to the zoopark. Imagine all kinds of animals living in the center of Moscow!!With all the polution and noise, i pitied the animals..Looking at them, they were spiritless.
Their eyes look sulky and tired, most of them just looked away while people snapping pics with flashes..I wanted so much to watch the Dugong show but the queue was too much.
Sun came out hour later and then all of sudden it so blazing hot...But i was very much thankful for their clean public toilet provided there...SO unlike Malaysia...

video of convo

2008-07-04T16:23:00.000+04:00

Tomorrow is convo day

2008-07-02T13:50:00.002+04:00

The funny thing is whenever i wanted to go out, the dark cloud was not far above me..It rained everytime i stepped out of the hostel. But whenever i was inside, the sky seemed clear.With sun and all.
The other day we (with wenli) we went out to VDNX having picnic with pau and some pasta. An old lady who sat on the same bench with us joined in and it was fun having conversation with people.
Then it rained....(-_-) I think it was last Friday.
Weekend was spent just like that-being home and resting but my headache attacked on Sunday and again yesterday.
I was lying on the bed whole day finally decided to ask for Maral.
Then suddenly it was wednesday(today) the day wenli leaving Moscow..lols
i was so excited to go back as well seeing the juniors packing and waiting for the transport to arrive.
Now that i m back in my room, this very moment, the sky is as clear as it can be!We went to kvartal for some groceries it was starting to get cloudy and it rained when me and Suresh were sending Wenli off.FUnny...
ANyway, i ll be alone in the room time being since wenli will be going back and other roomie is always busy and rushing off to somewhere time to time..kinda peaceful but boring abit.
It wasnt like a big deal the convo day for me as my parents wont be attending but my closest friends here will. I m happy for that reason though i wished wenli can attend it too..Thanks alot for helping me bring back some of the stuff(lots) I m really embarressed but really thankful for the help.
Of course i m wondering what is in store for me next... but i m sure things wil fall into place and soon clear picture will show me the path.
Hoping to have nice day today..Dont wana have headache again..

SAYONARA to my uni life....loved it and hated it..

2008-06-24T23:38:00.002+04:00

Finally finished my med school.
But somehow not very pleased with myself.

I got a shock the other day seeing my ex-fiance's wedding photo on facebook.com.
It was just few months away but i didnt know he married another girl.
I guess it was just not meant to be.
It wont be mature of me to bash him on my blog but where else can i bash him up other than my own blog!!??lol
Anyway, he was this egoistic man who thinks that other people are stupid and lackers. Then he made me feel insecure alot by making remarks about how i look, remarks about breaking up (even if its a small matter) he has to win the arguement everytime!selfish! and
Basically i cant tolerate being with him too long...there you go..
So i am slightly happy for him as he found his pair who can tolerate his attitude.
I wonder who can!??But of course i am dissapointed by his actions deep inside but i felt that i let him go long before i saw this picture. Feeling nothing more than abit of dissapointment.

About the exams and graduation day..It was long wait for this moment but i dont feel satisfied as i cant share this moment with people i care about most.
But i am truly blessed as i know who cared for me and sacrificed for me..
I wana thank my family, friends and unimates for supporting , caring, loving ,helping me while being overseas.
To my roomies and ex roomies , i m sorry for being crazy time to time (hahah) and thanks for being patience with me. Sharing things and living together wasnt easy. But now it s time to say goodbye u ll see me next time as MO..MUAHAHHAHHA!
To wenli thanks a million just cant express how much thanks for being there, for maNjaing me for doing my hair, bla bla coming to resQ...PINK pig to resq
Though i know u tried ur best but still cant attend my graduation u went for the rehearsal..lol..
Try to be patience and be cheerful always.MUAKsss

There are so many things to share in thoughts, experience and knowledge but i guess it s better for you all(juniors) to learn them yourself in your own way.
SAYONARA RSMU!

3days countdown

2008-06-19T03:55:00.000+04:00

WOw, i ve been so busy lately. I rarely cook nowadays. Just tumpang my friends place and eat.(-_-)
The 2nd stage of exam wasnt as difficult as i thought it would be but time was swift and the hall was overly packed with the 6th years.
Now the final stage...finally the final of all finals..
Though i m worried and nervous, i m feeling a little numb and tired of the long exams..
But i got myself a kimono top(at last something new for such a long time) after the 2nd exam..It s hard to find smtg my size here..Most shops only sell oversized ones.
I cant wait to finish the exam and rest.
I am sad to leave this place, this country and my friends here but at the same time very anxious to go further...to the next chapter...

Song of the day.

2008-06-03T16:38:00.001+04:00

Longer (Studio) - David Archuleta

Few days to countdown..Some things i just cant forget..

2008-06-03T15:11:00.006+04:00

Since i sold the bed, we rearranged the place and it is now more comfy and spacious.

Yesterday thinking i had some extra cash in my hands , went out to apteka and bought tonometer and termometer for future use.But only to realise my atm card was up to no good...
Wenli got me stethoscope rappaport as gradution gift.THANKS BUDDY!Though least expected, i am glad and thankful.
Through ups and downs, she shared many same views as i do.

The idea of sexy pastor's wife again came into my mind while browsing through for new music video online in youtube.com.
Dont know what other people think of her and her status. But personally i was irked. Especially when this particular pastor is the favorite idol among many students here...

A friend told me that our God never dissapoint us but Man does.

Finally got ticket Egpyt airline and flying back on 29th july. pretty late but i wanted to settle everything and make amends with everything here before i leave.

Though there is someone i find hard to forgive since she betrayed me some time ago, i became different person and learnt my lesson on trust the hard way.

The innocent face and voice make me wana vomit. I forgave her once, i forgave her twice even when i heard ppl telling me she has been saying things behind my back but i brushed it off, i even forgave her when she left me scar next to my left eye.It was one time, she walked past hurriedly, her jacket /movement,somehow the chair just fell on me while i was eating dinner on the floor and the sharp end missed my left eye by 1cm!! I was bleeding profusely from the deep cut but she walked away.
When i returned from the apteka, i found her telling our friends it was an accident and that i shouldnt blamed her or hurt her!! DAmn , i didnt even have any bad intentions but only to forgive her! Not only that she pretend to be scared and took on hiding in other friends room.And since then she always having a friend protecting her and following back to our room as if i m gonna jump and kill her whenever she return!!But this wasnt the worst to come....
We definitely cant judge a person by the cover!I still cant forget how she lied to the whole batch saying i bought papers(physics exam) from Bad A$% Indians ppl. Even after i confronted her and explained to her she was mistaken( i really thought she misunderstand me at tht time-gosh how foolish)she didnt even apologised. I added that she should explain to everyone about it that she was mistaken.

But somehow the next day , she told everyone the bigger lie-she told pp that i threatened her by using those bad A#@ Indian ppl to F**" her up just because she claimed that she told the truth about me and that her life was in danger!
Almost everyone ganged up sgainst me that time i still remember vividly -the day of LAtin exam. Even if there were some bystanders who knew what really happened, they can just sympathise but in the end , pp just prefer to join the major side anyway...
Her friends(who used to be my friends too before they took on her side) protecting her as if she was this lil rabbit innocently hunted by superevil witch!!
It was hard, rough time for me.Imagine losing all your friends-many those which i introduced to her as well. But i bet she dont care. Everywhere i looked i see doubts and disgust on faces, i lost respect from my batchmates just because of a lie...Some even sarcastically scolded me-hey u bought papers??you always friend with bad INdians aa??
even if i defended myself and explained-do u think they ll believe my side of story at tht time?? pointless so I dont feel i needed to explain anything, if u think i m such a corrupted person then you arent my friend anymore-you dont know my heart and where i stand. i Prayed hard some day this will be over and pp will come to realise how foolish they were to trust this *****and open their eyes widely.
So those who read this beware of people who looks innocent they might be the biggest wolf!

Things were never the same after that.It was over and long forgotten by others but to me, how can i ever forget this? Thanks to her i lost faith and trust in friendship. I am cold and snobbish or bad tempered if someone doesnt know me they might use these words to describe me. But who cares!!Only time can prove and show me the real friends are..
It might be nearer to the end of my uni life. But i wish to share my experience to younger naive people but i just cant stop being overwhelmed by the dramas and triumphs from the chapters of my life here. Take notes, and learn from the proven path.I m definitely looking forward for future nonetheless.

So it goes..

2008-06-02T13:06:00.000+04:00

In every heart there is a room
A sanctuary safe and strong
To heal the wounds from lovers past
Until a new one comes along

I spoke to you in cautious tones
You answered me with no pretense
And still I feel I said too much
My silence is my self defense

And every time I've held a rose
It seems I only felt the thorns
And so it goes, and so it goes
And so will you soon I suppose

But if my silence made you leave
Then that would be my worst mistake
So I will share this room with you
And you can have this heart to break

And this is why my eyes are closed
It's just as well for all I've seen
And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

So I would choose to be with you
That's if the choice were mine to make
But you can make decisions too
And you can have this heart to break

And so it goes, and so it goes
And you're the only one who knows

Many things on my mind

2008-06-01T20:33:00.002+04:00

last night i dreamt of waterfall on a small mountain. The height of the mountain was moderate-something that i can climb and easy to conquer. The waterfall was clear and looks beautiful. Along with some friends, we climbed up together and enjoy the water sprays on our face whenever the wind blows.

Every dream has its own meaning. Here is what i found out.
Waterfall

Water generally represents the unconscious and the emotions. A waterfall is a positive dream symbol that suggests a cleansing of negative emotions or psychological issues. Just a simple visualization or a daydream of standing in a waterfall makes a person feel energized and refreshed. If the waterfall in your dream is overwhelming or too powerful for you to enjoy, it may represent emotional energy and unconscious drives that are very difficult to effectively cope with on the conscious level.

So for me, i was standing over the waterfall and then climbed the mountain.

with u

2008-05-27T12:33:00.001+04:00

With You - Chris Brown

exams are coming soon...hoping i will be ready by then..

2008-05-27T12:14:00.004+04:00

My mind has been drifting left and right while reading and memorising the tests in mcqs.
I thought i ll be doing better job when i dont have to attend any classes.
SOmehow things stays the same. I even have headaches throughout the day..
reason unknown..might be for staying in room too long , or just plainy bored, or might be due to eyesight problem. Our mind just cant fixate on one thing for long time, i guess.
Though i thought it would be nice to stay up late and sleep in late since i got all zachut but this wasnt the case. I hate staying with people. Others will wake up earlier thus their alarms will wake me first then do their morning stuff before leaving, after that, i might be able to sleep back or be frustrated and wake up after they leave.
At some point i ll be wishing that i m rich so i can have more freedom, like having own space, transport, choose what i like.

DIY skinny jeans

2008-05-17T23:30:00.005+04:00

the trend was in 10 months ago, so i decided to remont my jeans..they looked great..HAWT!

Imagine....

2008-05-15T18:24:00.001+04:00

Imagine

Imagine there's no heaven,
It's easy if you try,
No hell below us,
Above us only sky,
Imagine all the people
living for today...

Imagine there's no countries,
It isn’t hard to do,
Nothing to kill or die for,
And no religion too,
Imagine all the people
living life in peace...

You may say I’m a dreamer,
but I’m not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
and the world will live as one.

Imagine no possessions,
I wonder if you can,
No need for greed or hunger,
Or brotherhood of man,
Imagine all the people
sharing all the world...

You! You may say I’m a dreamer,
but I’m not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
and the world will live as one.

You may say I’m a dreamer,
but I’m not the only one,
I hope some day you'll join us,
and the world will live as one.

Final day of 6th year med school is..TODAY!

2008-05-14T18:36:00.002+04:00

Many things happened in the past few weeks. I didn't keep track when was the last time i blogged but most probably before MASSAD 08. I didnt attend it as the made this #$#$%^%^&* rule that no one from outside should attend. They made it very specific on the blog.
But i was just intended to show my korean friend a glimpse of Malaysian culture, food and check out our beautiful girls who were also future doctors.heheh..But anyway, with that kind of rule , it was really a turnoff! I d rather spend those money outing on a fine diner or restaurant anyway.Again..stupid &*((*&^^%%$ rule!
I can see that not many malaysian students mixing with other people except of course with other malaysians..It made them so small minded and they arent making the full use of this chance to learn and get to know other people from all over the world. Let's just start with the locals-Russians, they might be rude but the ones i met are fine and men are such gentlemen comparing to fellow Malaysians..I mean when else we are all gonna mix with people if not when in our uni life? I have a bunch of Russian friends from different walks of life. To name a few- Friends who play skates, friends from the net ,of course friends from lectures, friends from hostel..bla bla..They are everywhere..Sometimes i dont feel like mixing with fellow Malaysians as they are so gossippy, calculative and jugdemental..I also hate the fact that many of them are narrow minded..Enjoying a company with someone different from you doesnt mean it can change who you are! Everyone is different from each other but it made the conversation so much more interesting...There are so much things to talk about in this wide world we live in, why only the gossips that attract? There are the 2dollar multitouch screen we can create, or the new WII infra red usage, talk about the parks which open soon, talk about our future car ,dream house..bla bla..new movies...Of course sometimes gossiping is fun when u have it with only the closest people who share the same view but most of the time it does not interest me to talk about people i dont know or know a little of.
So it is the end of my journey as med student year6 but i still need to attend electives and then study for the finals..Pharmacology is finally cleared up , it has been bugging my tail since the interview made me missing the zachut day. Then, today was the final cycle . I wanted to thank God for making me stronger and am very thankful for passing all zachuts. I am thankful for my family who supported me and who am i without some friends who throw in some help and support time to time. I am half way relieved but of course i still have a lot to do and upcoming..
A friend of mine told me not to be hateful to someone good to us before when they did something wrong at the present. We must recall the memories of the good things instead of emphasis of the present mistake but of course there's a limit to it..So there i ve learnt important lesson.

Yesterday was history, tomorrow a mystery and today is a gift, that's why it is called as present

I like this very much and would like to interpret it my way, so it means we cant change the past but we can make the best out of today and tomorrow we dont know what we might get just like a box of chocolate. Besides we only live once in the present.
My allergic rhinitis was gone, i am not sure what happened but i am happy and glad. It really sucked when the nose was running, eyes red and itchy..
Oh by the way, i plugged out some of the lashes as they were so irritating, and too long that it made it impossible for me to wear glasses at home..now that they are shorter it felt right and look amazing nonetheless.. I love them!
So to end this post, i would like to hear some words to push me forward as i am lacking of it lately. And a lot of lucks for the final...

3 Day Diet

2008-04-28T01:04:00.001+04:00

Day 1

Breakfast

Black coffee or tea, with 1-2 packets Sweet & Low or Equal

1/2 grapefruit or juice

1 piece toast with 1 tablespoon peanut butter

Lunch

1/2 cup tuna

1 piece toast

Black coffee or tea, with 1-2 packets Sweet & Low or Equal

Dinner

3 ounces any lean meat or chicken

1 cup green beans

1 cup carrots

1 apple

1 cup regular vanilla ice cream

Day 2

Breakfast

Black coffee or tea, with 1-2 packets Sweet & Low or Equal

1 egg

1/2 banana

1 piece toast

Lunch

1 cup cottage cheese or tuna

8 regular saltine crackers

Dinner

2 beef franks

1 cup broccoli or cabbage

1/2 cup carrots

1/2 banana

1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream

Day 3

Breakfast

Black coffee or tea, with 1-2 packets Sweet & Low or Equal

5 regular saltine crackers

1 ounce cheddar cheese

1 apple

Lunch

Black coffee or tea, with 1-2 packets Sweet & Low or Equal

1 boiled egg

1 piece toast

Dinner

1 cup tuna

1 cup carrots

1 cup cauliflower

1 cup melon

1/2 cup regular vanilla ice cream

In addition to its strict daily food prescription, dieters drink 4 cups of water or noncaloric drinks daily.

How It Works
By some unspecified magical force, the combination of the suggested foods included in this plan is supposed to create a unique metabolic reaction and boost fat burning.

Without an author or book, there is no documentation or explanation of how the 3 Day Diet food combinations burn fat, increase energy, cleanse the body, or lower cholesterol.

As the name suggests, the 3 Day Diet lasts only three days, though it's said that it can be repeated indefinitely, as long as you alternate with 4-5 days of undefined "normal eating." The purpose of returning to your usual eating style is to keep your metabolism from slowing, reverting to fat-storing, starvation mode

All the bad stuff will happen in one moment

2008-04-27T20:38:00.003+04:00

The so called- JATUH then ditimpa tangga, always when 1 bad thing happen then others will follow. So sial.

But today, my Korean friend's grandma passed away on Friday, i helped the family setting up the funeral dinner at the super small apartment. She suffered from old age awhile ago, i still remember freshly how she can still walk here and there around the kitchen. Then suddenly got worse, and immobilised.

They covered all their mirrors and monitors. They somehow believed that the soul mustn't come back to their home through the mirror as the soul wouldn't want to leave the world behind and cant go on to the next dimension.

She was buried somewhere outskirt, and the ceremony ended in 1 hour.But needed to drive to get there. I stayed at their home to do other chores setting up the dinner.

Polinosis makes my life miserable lately, i cant breath, nose all clogged up, sometimes runny. It is really frustrating and the medication for it wasn't cheap. One week i ll need to spend over 1k ++ roubles. Xyzal the main medication-320roubles for 1 week, nasal drip- 207roubles for 2 weeks. Then needed to pay for graduation day 2k roubles-y need to pay in the first pay, isn't our uni supposed to set it up for their grads!! so frustrating!! ALL MONEY MONEY!!I guess i ll book ticket later then.
Praying for things to get better.

Each week i set up a time to study in the weekend to do my Pharmaco-zachut since i missed it to attend the interview.##$%%!@#!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! This is like the first time i was lacking behind. It is also frustrating to feel pressured as i ha vent get the zachut. I m always ahead but nowadays each time i m planning for it, something happen in the weekend. Like the previous week, i got sick. This week Someones grandma funeral. SO next is what!!???

Strike more i m still standing,but all these are so frustrating!!

SOme ppl just have their parents backing them up, Just a call home asking for money and they get what they want. But i wondered don't they for once feel embarrassed to trouble their parents who were most likely to be in their 50s?Like someone i knew, she spent alot on clothes, and going to clubs ,enjoy. But she told me she knew she pitied her mother for working so hard, but nonetheless i still see her going to clubs, wasting money on travel and buy fabulous clothes(which doesn't make her look any prettier!)I m not here to judge but her way really pissing me off. While others just have the lucks they don't deserve...

OMG, for extracting this wisdom tooth , i need to do minor surgery. FIrst thing came to my mind was the fees not the fear of operation ( i m willing to do anything to take away this Mot@###((&F(****#((*&&^%$!!! toothache!).The inflammation pressured on the nerve so i have pulsating headache as well.....

I m losing Faith in people i used to respect or regard highly.

2008-04-16T14:01:00.002+04:00

I see many ppl are fakes, acting all holy and good but in fact they are the worse ppl. They help others for popularity and attention. They say do this tht is wrong but nonetheless, they are the biggest offenders in my eyes!

Then and again, it was a big shock for me seeing Pastor Kong's wife dancing in a youtube video.
She dressed up seductively in black undies dancing, and girls touching her body sensually. The clip also showed a couple dancing sex act in the beginning. Then if tht's not enough, she has her nick as GEISHA aka SUN. It seemed like suggesting of the idea of her being a sexual object,acting cheap. And the end of the video, she called other girls B**** in chinese...

But when she did attend ceremonies regarding the church she ll dress in white, acting all innocent and kind. This is so contradicting. She exchanged her moral values for fame and a name in Music industry. If she has been someone else other than a pastor's wife, i might have look at her in different light.

I m just dissapointed with Pastor Kong as he was one of the most influential person in my life since i discovered the city harvest church.I wondered if he has bought the devil's plight. In the exchange of money and fame for his soul. In the end being goody or not, believing in Christ or not, it all comes down to individualism. So enjoy CHINA WINE by pastor's wife..lols..it s pretty hot i'd add.

Thanks to all these factors

2008-04-16T11:19:00.002+04:00

1) stress in classes
2) The long walks in the rain Bad weather
3) Faraway hospitals
4) A selfish, clumsy roomie- making noises when i was trying to rest/sleep.
5) Lack of time
6) constant contact with patients, friends who were sick as well.
7) Classes which start to early.
8) Lack of nutritions.
9) as the answer to problem no. 5 i drank too much coffee but cant stay up late anyway.

The most irritating and biggest liar i ve ever met.

2008-04-15T15:42:00.005+04:00

Well the title sounded like a bad encouter with a bad Boyfriend, but at least if boyfriend is the case we can just easily break up..but no.. and..I dont know how to start. but i need let out my feelings somewhere. Blog i guess is the best place to set up my complaints which i cant keep any longer.
I ve been patience all this while. It has almost been a year, we accepted her to be our roomie with open arms.At first we had a plan of having the room for ourselves. But i m now hopelessly hating her now. I tried to forgive and forget and hope to doze off every night i m here in this room.
But things cant turn back as the way it was, i used to feel tht she is a nice friend, a helpful person. Now i only see her as an object of my irritations!She is always acting as innocent person, naive, goodie two shoes.But in fact she is actually the most ignorant ,rude, selfish person i ve ever met!!

First of all,* i m really hating myself for being angry with her* She lied when she said she has little stuff. Afterall, she moved in with more luggages than both of us, with more furniture than both of us. I even sacrificed and sold off my fridge,throw out my washing machine to fit in her stuff in. It seemed like she has doubles and triples of each things tht she owned!For example, stationaries but when she needs them, she ll ask for mine...the reason is simply because her stuff are so messed up she cant find them when she needs them or she borrowed them to someone..
Then, of course she is a person who likes to GIVE and help but it is really pissing people off when she gave away OUR STUFFS, or borrowed them to others without our knowledge and then forgets about it..It s not like i mind every little things..but it is a long term problem for example the most recent thing when i cant find my peeler, tupperware,nail clippers, and the list goes on...bla bla... she ll be the one to blame, it gets worse when she forgot about the item.As we can never get them back. She just simply answer I DONO!..how irresposible can that be!???
Once, twice, it s ok but this person is really good on stepping at the end of my nerves.She seems to be giving away and borrowing our stuff again and again!Especially in times of need, i cant find the items i owned and paid for!!!
REALLY ANGRY!!!!these are the mess she made while wenli was gone for the summer.It was the first sign...but i let it slip as i though when she have her own place things will be fine. but i was wrong...

During the summer holiday, she made Wenli's table like rubbish dump!Not only eating on her bed, she dropped some food and forgot about it soon after..It was such an eyesore to see how she manage her place even till today.. Her table was a constant eyesore even if her cousin cleaned it up for her before but it wasnt long untill it became the same old style of decor..sheeshhh..I told her many times, if she doesnt organize her place and things, she cant find them when she needs to use them, all the stuff will fall and make noises,it is also creating a hazardous situation and lastly, why wana make eyesore out of ur own room..**SHAKING HEAD*

I at first thought that she was nice, generous person but time had proven me wrong..She offered help to ppl outside the room and make our days miserable. She brought in printer not long ago but the funny thing is that there are times, when we werent sleeping or weekends or can just simply ask for consent. Its really funny somehow, whenever she wanted to print is when we were too tired and needed rest badly. Her timing is really MAN DAMN!!>>I WANT TO seriously scream!When ur eyes started to feel tired and u wanted to rest at night,Then she started la going in n out(the door itself is noisy imagine she goes in n out)..She stored stuffs from other ppl in our room, either doing a favor for someone, or forgot to return the stuff she borrowed as if the room is the store room. Then her alarms, it rang like so many times, but she just wont wake up. But both of us are already up and hating her so much for that. It s not like i never told her nicely , or help her to solve the problem, i even gave her an alarm clock but nothing has changed. It seemed like she can only wake up to my voice screaming.Her own hp alarms dont work for her PEKAK ears!
The other problem i have with this irritating person is that her habit of wasting stuff(I ve seen her throwing away food stuff either she kept them too long, forgot about them or simply cause she dont want them anymore...but never offered them to others better to rot n throw them away)Sometimes i ll ask her if she needs this or tht, but after a while i felt like silly coz why bother it s her food. SHe just took things for granted, be it food stuff, friends, any stuff! Spoiled by parents who gave her everything she wanted. Talks rudely to them, calling her mom stupid. bla bla..
This so called religious person does have Great God given talent. She is really good in irritating her roomies..
Not only she likes to do things whenever ppl wanted to sleep and make noises(i wonder how come other ex roomies doesnt wake me up from sleep before except for her)The answer is simple! She is selfish and ignorant! Her broken chair really making me angry , everytime i m sleeping, it ll make the loud Jolts,waking me up suddenly. If i can put socks at the each legs of my chair to reduce the noise, why cant she use her brain and think of something..fix it or throw it or DO SMTG!!why does she like to make ppl miserable??SHe helps others to do things but yet bother her roomies so much when she does them..NOISE and NOISE!!turns to hate hate hate.
Now i m only looking down upon her as a person who wanted popularity by taking all chores to do but then, so selfishly never thought about her roomies who also needed space and peace! It is too late to apologize now, the word sorry doesnt have an effect anymore, i ve been telling her way too many times, i m fed up.FED UP!!!!!!!!

I dislike her and her ways of living. Everyone has been telling me to be patient but seriously i feel like axing her head off everytime she does all the same irritating things again and again and again..It felt like she enjoyed them..She acted as if she doesnt know it even if we hated her for irritating us all the while she is in the room. Everytime i came home, i m hoping that she wont be in, so can enjoy the peace. everytime someone opens the main door with keys i m praying it wasnt her..Yeah it was THT BAD, alright..Of couse after a long and sickening day of traveling and lectures, u wanted to come home to a nice meal and bed. But even if u have those u cant rest as the other person is ignorant and selfish.
That s not the end..she lied to us..She thinks others dont know of her bad leg. So silly.She didnt tell the truth and detroy relationships among people.
Nowadays i put up a cloth to cover the space of my bed simply because i hated her presence and wanting to be alone in peace. I needed to fake my privacy and peace so much with her in the room.
So tell me, how can i not hate her..i really wanted to have peace and not hating anyone but i cant when she is constantly repeating the same thing i hate about her...Of course i m not perfect as well but to think of others and logic wasnt a hard chore to do especially when u are living with other people!

Gothic day- a friend's birthday.

2008-04-14T17:59:00.004+04:00

Hmmm..for the first time in my life i put on a lot of eyeliner and make my hair untidy. It was fun doing it with fir.So here's the result.

What a day..

2008-04-10T16:16:00.003+04:00

Yesterday ,went to see the dermatologist but i doubted him as he said i m having scabies! I knew it when he prescribed me benzyl benzoat.
He said the time of the itchy spots appear and the place i m staying has high chances of getting scabies.
But scabies skin burrows will have 2 punture holes. one for entrance and one for the female bug to come out after laying eggs. I ve been there n seen it. I m sure that the itchy spots hyperpigmented arent any like scabies bites.

I have these spots every year in winter n they subside when summer came. These spots werent disturbing me but i just dislike the pigmentation and sometimes itchiness.Then headed to Palenteology department near the Konkova metro. But we were 10 mins late so the counter was closed...
Anyway, today we saw patients with infectious endocarditis. In their history its about the same. Either they had valve replacement surgery done and then contracted the disease or drug addicts who inject themselves frequently. Addicts will have concurent diseases like HEp B and C and not to forget pneumonia and glomerulonephritis. The bacs we should be having a war with are Staphylococcus and Streptococcus. Vegetations grow on the valve and the patient have high 38-40 for a month or more. The teacher has her own style and we dont really like her anyway, she has bad attitude and sarcasm. I hope i can get through this cycle with ease..5 more weeks to go..

Some photos from phone uploaded

2008-04-06T19:14:00.005+04:00

From 2 megapixel phone camera, it seemed to be alright. Now that winter is finally over, we all get to enjoy the breeze of spring. And i m back to my fave miniskirts!Flashing back, i felt once the winter was over, it was a relief but at the same time it felt as if winter was too long but short when it was finally over.

Tropical disease exam

2008-04-02T21:44:00.003+04:00

Though i see the morning sun today, i wasnt keen on waking up. Just like a set alarm clock i didnt basically control my body to get ready for exam.
In shorts, i reached the place where exam was held and passed it with luck. Hallelujah!
So again, tonight will need to do the infusion. And tomorrow a new cycle starts.
I ve been feeling excited a little bit but the feeling has gone abit lower about the day i m graduating. It somehow felt like a long wait. Many people said to me few more months, few more months..but it has been few more months for a long time...
anyway, anyhu..i took few pics on the hp. It looked ok.aiya. cant connect..next time upload.

Infusion for my friend's granma

2008-03-31T13:23:00.004+04:00

She is old and was sick. It seems like her health has gotten from ok to bad since moving here to Moscow from Tashkent.
Then she had a fall which makes things worse. In short words, she needed to do IV infusion for 10-15 days to increase nutritions, blood circulation to brain and IO.
But no one to do it at home as she is immobilised with osteoporosis, hernia of cervical spines and muscle weakness.
She lost alot of weight and spend her time just watchin Tv all day. Unlike other family in Moscow, ppl usually abandon their old parents. I see this daily at the wards where old ppl came in with Skoroi pomosh(ambulance),they live alone in their apartments. Sometimes with cats or their dog but most of the time alone.
I wonder how could these generation abandon their parents...
When we talked to them at the wards, it was really heart wrenching to hear how lonely they were, how afraid they were. I hope i can make them feel alil better by just holding their hands or sometimes visiting them after classes and listen to their small talks about life. But somehow after the cycle ends, i moved on to another cycle and i felt i didnt do enough. I will blame it on the lack of time, my own stamina, but basically, i wasnt sure if i wanted to bond with patients so much. I might not be ready to be emotionally attach and then de-attach to patients. I hope to learn this valuable lessons when i m working as HO.
Anyway, back to the infusion, i did only few times setting up the infusion set so i didnt dare to take risks to go it on my own for my friend. So i called my friend, Maral who is Postgrad student doing major in surgery. She is much more experienced and she taught me how to do it all over again. So today is the day i ll do this on my own.

Luckless or lucky?

2008-03-19T21:40:00.003+03:00

The much awaited interview was over. It wasnt as hard as i thought it would be. MUstabeen my luck.
But covering back for the Pharmaco zachut is hard..since the interview and the zachut were on the same day.
Put a curtain over the place i m sleeping made me feel abit more secure and get to enjoy more privacy. Thanks to Thai airways!(the purple blanket)hehe

THis week was different

2008-02-24T11:27:00.002+03:00

Though i m happy and well fed lately, i am lacking the motivation to continue my daily life. Abit reluctant to get the day started but because of my responsibility, i just follow the clock like a zombie. Go class on time, come back, have late lunch, study and chores and then sleep.
Whenever weekends come, i d be even more reluctant to do my work, i d laze around but yet again, when my classmate appear on Ym and telling me things she did, i got myself up and finish what i am supposed to do..
SO much driven by procrastination. I dont know exactly where i learn this word from, but i hope that my future self wont be regretting things i do right now....

This was the weekend well spent

2008-02-17T23:41:00.003+03:00

FInally out of the room and got my own time to properly sleep , rest without the noise.
I really dislike living in hostel wishing i have my own place for peace and serenity.
Not that i dislike sharing but there are alot of differences between me and others.
SOme people dont have common sense or respect or tidiness.

I have to deal with it for the next few more months. Feel like puking dy.

Over packed room and untidiness, then always me doing the cleaning really making me fed up. Cleaning means including the use of soap and brush ok???picking up hair too!!get it???

Jus rinse each time after use doesnt count. always pretending to be forgetful every time i mention it making me pissed..

Then not to mention the phones which kept vibrating and ringing only the owner cant hear!!funny hor..Then always go in go out is irritating..so irritating..
U read this u know who u r..sendiri tahu tahu..

War field.

2008-02-10T20:59:00.000+03:00

People kills people.
Hatred, lust for power
They burn the soul.

Fallen angels whisper
upon shoulders
For they have forgotten
the way back.

God left this place
the last decade.

Reds rusted iron blades,
stained fingertips.
Skin covered bones laid a
s far as eyes can see.

Minds made lost.

Death the only picture painted
Yet, sinister smiles drawn on faces
Heart cold stoned.

War Stole love
feuling anger in return.
Hero name brought by stolen lives
Triumphs murderers
Forgive our sins
For only God can judge us.

some friends arent friends.

2008-02-10T20:52:00.000+03:00

they talk bad about u behind your back. SO these people arent my friends..

burn fat on their own

2008-02-03T20:32:00.000+03:00

Wouldn’t you just love it if your body decided to burn fat and calories on its own?

It can:
1. Exercise in short, intense bursts (interval training) for effective fat burning after exercise.
2. Increase the amount of resistance/strength/weight training you do, to build more lean muscle. Muscle is ‘metabolically active’ and burns more calories than other body tissue even when you’re not moving.
And of course, for best results:
3. Chill on the amount of food you are eating.

Technically:
1. Our bodies are built to survive, so when you exercise for long periods of time (often and consistently) your body thinks it needs to hold on to fat for energy. Doing short (12-15 minute), intense exercise sessions builds strength and burns calories, but not fat, so it “feels safe” using fat stores for energy after exercise.
2. Resistance training (using extra weight) helps build lean muscle mass (and strong bones), and muscle burns more calories than fat.
3. If you are obsessing over things like fat grams and not eating a nutritious diet, your body will reserve energy (store fat) to survive.

Realistically:
1. Varying your exercise is the most effective and efficient way to stay lean and healthy. You must do some longer exercise to build cardiovascular endurance, burn lots of calories, and yes, even burn fat during exercise - your body will not click in to “save” mode unless you exercise for long periods of time, regularly and often.
2. You must do resistance training in order to build muscle and strong bones.
3. Nobody wants to exercise more - and we don’t want to train our bodies to need more exercise to stay fit. So exercise efficiently – two short, very intense (relative to your level of fitness) training sessions weekly, like a 15-minute fast run/walk or fast cycling sprint intervals, and two moderately long, moderately intense sessions (30-45 minutes) of strong walking, cycling, or yoga, with one long day (60-90 minutes) of a moderately paced walk/hike. That’s a great five-day/week training schedule.
4. Instead of adding more days to your workout schedule, add a weighted vest to your training. I have said this before, but this is the most efficient way that I know of to build muscle while burning calories. For more information, go to http://www.walkvest.com/.
5. Eat moderately - stop counting fat grams and calories and look at how much food is on your plate! And eat more nutritiously by eating foods that are natural and unprocessed.

Keep it real -

About 3 days since i was freed.

2008-01-29T04:54:00.000+03:00

Right after the exam i had many things on my mind ..
Things to do, things to think about, Movies to watch , books to read, people to call
CHores to be done
Forms to fill up
After the second day, i am starting to feel lousy. I did all the chores, things to do but then and again, i was reluctant to spend the time on my sleep. I have been sleeping only in the morning then waking up at noons.
It wasnt long before sun was down.
So tonight or shall i say this morning, i popped in sedative antihistamine so i can sleep earlier than usual. Tomorrow i still have to queue for the bus pass.
I dont know if i am feeling drowsy or just the sting from the long hours in front of computer. As much of a nerd i was and still am, i find watching yahoo streaming news more fun than hanging out with friends. JUst each time hoping that the internet service works fine.
Now that i am finally alone in the room, it is the time to learn funny ,ridiculous dance moves that might work!Other than that, i alone shall enjoy the romantic candles in lavander and eating lagsana while watching One missed call..
This movie used to be really scary but now that i was exposed to the world of autopsy, this movie feels like a chick plot movie..and has made Rambo 4 sucks..People explodes like red liquid filled balloons...now my head wana explode too..I hope you love this song too..

"Yeah sometimes, sorry isnt enough for the damage that has been done.
The hurt just wont go away, trust just cant come back in a flash just because you said the word. Some people do really think that the word can heal us from the pain and undone the damage, how naive. It will only be useful if the person hearing the word has already forgiven you. When you already forgave a person, then you longed to hear it ,just for confirmation that things are okay."

Egypt calling

2008-01-12T02:30:00.000+03:00

Hmm..now that the exams are over, i needed some time to recall the trip to Egypt. Seems like long time ago..

Here we go.
On the flight to Egypt everything was wonderful but we were stucked at the airport for few hours in Hurgada. The tour guide didnt wait for us and so we were left at the airport. We managed to ask around and found the green van. We waited for awhile then, the tour agent manager arrived grumbling why were we the last ones to arrive. It wasnt our fault if the line at the custom was so long.
Upon reaching the Hotel Royal Palace, i was a little disappointed as it was supposed to be a 4 star but it didnt live up to its reputation. It was 12am.
We went to bed right after supper.

The 1st morning started with buffet type breakfast (well decorated and wide variaties of food.)Then, the tour guide appear 15 mins late. I think our agent is the worse one. Bad service, not punctual and cheat alot.
Some people took trip to Cairo, some for the cruise around the coral islands, etc
i decided to take the city tour. We left the Hotel for city tour at about 6 pm but i was too tired and didnt pay much attention in the bus.
The town looked wrecked. With people in dirty clothes walking here and there.
We visited the church,the mosque, what else..then we went to Egyptian oil shop recommended by the tour guide*should never buy anything from any shops recommended as their price are much much higher. Then we dropped by the eastern bazaar and got some souvenirs.

The 2day was the day to stroll along the beach, after breakfast, went to the beach and enjoy the view ,wahhh..nice....
3rd day same as 2nd day
4th day, we left for Luxor at 5 am by bus and slept in the bus. Got there in the noon..We made a stop where the beduin ppl live *they are supprisingly dirty and haggy.
Then we visited Karnak temple..I felt really emotional it was really amazing! Only my eyes can tell u how great it was.
The next was Valley of the Kings , it was dusty and windy at the same time. I went in to Kings tombs to find scriptures on the walls. Amazing!But we can only visit 3 tombs. Before tht, On the way we visited the place where they make the souvenirs from stones and marbles. I love the ones which glows in the dark. We visited for a short while Hopsutep* i think* A female firaou's tomb. Then the camera mulfunctioned.. I was moody and worried about the camera.The memories inside..
Then finally we headed home ,feeling hungry and tired not to mention, frustrated with the camera problem.
We all had late dinner at 12am and head right to bed.
5thday, i was too tired to waake up early so i skipped breakfast and went for dinner.
Then i headed to the beach and went snorkeling in the Red Sea.
The experience was *no words to describe it* but i do panicked for a while, it was mt first time floating in the midst of nowhere. And i felt tinglings from the fishes moving around my legs and i am afraid of the living things below .hahah...Other ppl are enjoying their time..But after awhile, i got used to the feeling and enjoy the time looking and watching the marine life down there. It looks like a busy metro polis.=) Then after few moments , time passed by so fast i didnt even realise tht i was time to go back to shore. I was shivering on the way back..
Dinner was great as they made special day for the Russian visitors as it was their New year. I ate too much and then i drank a cup of wine. When i went up to my room, i felt nausea and vomitted all i ate at the buffet..And i got hungry at midnight..haha...not only tht, the basin was stucked and i had to call someone to fix the basin....tht s bad..
On the 6th day(friday) i think...Went to the TItanic aqua park. The park was beautiful and fun. It was sunny but windy, so pretty cold..I tried almost all rides and with some help managed to slide the scary ride *took it on video*
SO then the day ended.
FInally it was the day to pack our things, after check out.. i walked and walked discovered Ramstor . MAN..tht place has the cheapest souvenirs and widest range of it! I bought the egyptian perfumes oils and papyrus and lots more.
And then i got home..=) overall i m happy. NOw it s time for me to study for the much awaited state exam of surgery.

New year 2008 celebrated my own way.

2008-01-01T18:26:00.000+03:00

The new year's eve went by just like that. What i expected wasnt what i got but at least i am glad i get to be with Pink pig and her sidekick..hehe..thank you guys i m happy i have you, i ve never found anyone so supportive and someone who cared so much for me.
The day started grim as the weather wasnt so good and it was dark. We planned to go to the Red Square at 7pm but due to unwanted consequences, we went there nonetheless at about 9.30 pm and reached there nearly at 10 pm.
But an extra person following us wasnt a big trouble but it was a problem when she wanted to be treated like princess , because of her we took taxi ,because of her we were late.
Then when we reached there, we found the queue was so long and it will take us long time to reach to the second level of security. So we decided to call it quits and moved on to the next destinations in MGU where they claimed to have lazer show and fireworks..
And so we went along the tverskaya street having chatty and cheerful conversation until the princess said that she needs to go to the toilet. But of course there are none around unless she dont mind toi toi toilets..So all of us just ignored her irritation ways(she kept asking where are we, how long will it take , what time are we going back and bla bla all the same..she was spoiling our new year.
So most of us ignored her and we have our fun and she is welcomed to join if she wanted to, so instead she walked behnd us and taking her own photos.
Reaching the metro universitet, she suddenly bursted into tears and grabbing everyone's attention to her. She dont want to talk to me even though i m the senior, i can help her instead she kept on crying and said that she felt unwell to Anton. It seemed she just wanted his attention. When we said we will prescribe her medication for epilepsy as she claimed to be, she said she wanted to go home same results goes to the the suggestions of calling ambulance.
When we asked her to sit , she refused but Anton asked her to sit holding her hands she sat.MAN.. i m angry already by this time all 3 of us med students knew she was faking it..
Finally with only 40 mins left for countdown Anton left with his cousin and headhome..After 15 mins, he called again and said she is fine now. WTF of course la fine..already home and spoil our new year celebration we waited for long time.
damn tht *****..But nonetheless, 3 of us headed towards our destination and had some drinks in our hands and had fun. We saw fireworks from near and Beautiful lazerworks MGU's building. Everyone was happy and cheerful . Peter bought us some ballon thingy..so funny haha..it cracks me up everytime someone got hit..lols..and we have great photos..In the metro someone drunk asking pink pig to hit him with her *axe* lols..funny..never seen pink pig 's sidekick, the red spongbob (hehe new nick for u,fren)
I dont know how to handle anton after tht but he did reappear and apologised.His cousin who seeked attention, is his own problem..dont wana give a tick about it.Of course i wasnt so happy with his frequent absense but this situation is out of hand.
As long as i have pink pig to the resque along with her side kick, i am thankful. Sorry if i somehow spoiled your new year too..i hope u guys did have fun..
We came back and waited for Su anne!and then next target is Suet YIn ...lols..

Let's go skatin'

2007-12-28T16:28:00.000+03:00

Today was the last day of the sem. I was so pleased and happy. I only left 6 more months to go before graduations but before that i will have few more gates to pass through.
Then that evening at about 7.30pm, We(wenli, pete, SIva )planned to check out the outdoor skating area in Hermitage in center of Moscow.
The night was windy but in our heart we felt the warmth.
We walked and walked. Then we discovered the 1st McD ever built in Moscow , Casino Shangrila, The moscow theater, GUM, and many more.
Finally we found the place and it was as beautiful as expected..The lights and trees, the ice are all just great. Though i fell down 1 time my body aches!wow!
We had great time in the McD too..So hungry i ate a cow Size Mc Myphic!!along with coffee and potatoes..fat liao lo...(-_-)...

Coincident?

2007-12-27T17:10:00.000+03:00

Today was the longest time i queued for the monthly student bus pass.
While feeling oh so very tired, my mind wanders. I hope to see Pink pig to resque me from boredom of standing there. Then i thought about a friend of mine as well..
And then, at the moment i put down my thought and continue reading my papers(surgery MCQs)he suddenly was standing in front of me!!How suprising!Of course a pleasant suprise...It has lit up day long day so far....
Then i wonder do i have the same effect on other people too??Does anyone think of me then, i suddenly show up and made their day as well.. i hope i do...

Just like a tattoo

2007-12-26T21:40:00.000+03:00

Oh, oh, oh

No matter what you say about love
I keep coming back for more
Keep my hand in the fire
Sooner or later, I'll get what I'm asking for

No matter what you say about life
I learn every time I bleed
That truth is a stranger
Soul is in danger, I gotta let my spirit be free

To admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I have to move on
And leave you behind

[Chorus]
I can't waste time so give it a moment
I realize, nothing's broken
No need to worry 'bout everything I've done
Live every second like it was my last one
Don't look back at a new direction
I loved you once, needed protection
You're still a part of everything I do
You're on my heart just like a tattoo

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you, I'll always have you)

I'm sick of playing all of these games
It's not about taking sides
When I looked in the mirror, didn't deliver
It hurt enough to think that I could

Stop, admit that I'm wrong
And then change my mind
Sorry but I gotta be strong
And leave you behind

[Chorus]

(Just like a tattoo, I'll always have you
I'll always have you)

[Bridge]
If I live every moment
Won't change any moment
Still a part of me and you
I will never regret you
Still the memory of you
Marks everything i do

[Chorus X2]

Just like a tattoo
I'll always have you

cutie

2007-12-25T03:28:00.001+03:00

The ending of year 2007and i present to u my ocean size love..

2007-12-24T20:20:00.000+03:00

ok finally the christmas is here!ok just the eve..i came home and felt so tired..i just fell to bed unconciously..no christmas mood at all..I felt a little sad being away for 6 years without my family..I have ocean sized love to give but like i said ocean size meaning far apart or separated by the sea..There are many happy moments and sad moments. I missed the time i spent with tht someone special but fate just dont allow us to be together..
But with me here was the pink pig..she s always here for me(^_^) thank you ,super pig! I LOVE U BABe!(with the E sound like ee)heheehehe.

While i was sleeping, time gone by so fast suddenly it was 8 pm.
I decided to blog while having the Kuri grill with wenli(thanks for sharing with me)
Today while on the way to class, i found out a nice skating ring! i wana go there this saturday!!! Come let s go!!
To LOrd:lord, Here i come to you with open heart. I am thankful for all the things u gave me, blessing every meal i took into my body. I am thankful for the friendship which appear in my life. I am thankful for the health and blessings in what i am doing. I remember i ve made a promise to serve u in my own way when i first believe in u. U showed me That U are always there for me.The moment i stand before the place where the incident took place after 3 years i realised that U have been guiding me towards my dreams and my promise to U. Dear Lord as small as i feel right now, i have never been so in love before. Even if the people i love are faraway , i pray for them every night before i sleep in which i have faith that U heard them.
I m thankful for all the toughest moments in my life which made me stronger. Dear Lord,lead me to brighter road ahead , fill me up with wisdom and love in the olive jar just like the story in the bible.Amen.

This;sthe compilation of what happened in year 2007 and previous years plus the people i missed most.Let us sing to this favourite song of mine..
I love u an ocean size love

I know what I'm doing may be dumb
I know I should not be staring at the sun
But the thought of you leads me to temptation
It's the same whatever side you're on
Separated we are delicate and small
And the space between needs a retention

I see you right in front of me as close as you can get
And I pray that you won't leave this daydream yet

And it might seem much too far to get back to where you are
But it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

I don't have to worry anymore
If I really need you I'll go to the shore
And the thought of you there is my protection

I see it right in front of me
A vision in my head
And I know this is as real as a daydream gets

And it might seem much too far to get back to where you are
But it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

You make no sound but I can hear you in the wind
I can see this never ends
Like the sea
Like you for me

And it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

And it might seem much too far to get back to where you are
But it's close enough with an ocean size love
So if you can't reach out to me
Send a sign across the sea and I'll pick it up with an ocean size love

Red furry hats and smiley faces.

2007-12-23T16:56:00.000+03:00
Early in the morning, i tried to wake the pink pig. But after 1 hour, she finally decided to get ready.(o_0)ugh...hahahah
OK le joking only..

REal blog-
Then we went out to our long awaited Concert in Metro alekseevskaya.The weather is so nice yesterday without rain, snow or ice on the floor and it was warm evening.
The best performance of the night is the Dj,he is amazing and his music is my kind of music.Jaclyn Victor was larger of a talent than i thought she would be. Though there are some really funny comments made by our bunch of friends, we did have great time at the concert.
MIkhail was feeling underdressed(^_^)but dont worry man, u look just fine as always. Just remember to smile more.I do hope you have great time too.

Merry Christmas & Happy 2007!

2007-12-17T18:16:00.000+03:00

wishing u a merry xmas and the best new year to come!

all about lentils! i love em!

2007-12-14T23:52:00.001+03:00
Health, March 2006
World's Healthiest Foods: Lentils (India)
by Joan Raymond
Lentils give you protein, cholesterol-lowering soluble fiber, and lots of iron.

Lentils are to India as meatloaf is to America: the quintessential comfort food. Ranging from yellow and red to deep black, these tiny disc-shaped members of the legume family are eaten in some form at least twice a day in “any self-respecting Indian household,” says Kavita Mehta, founder of the Web-based Indian Foods Co. In fact, India is the world’s biggest producer and consumer of lentils. Known as dal, lentils typically are served at every meal with steamed rice or bread.

Why to try them: This “superfood” gives you protein and cholesterol-lowering soluble fiber, as well as about twice as much iron as other legumes. And lentils are higher in most B vitamins and folate, which is especially important for women of childbearing age because folate reduces the risk of birth defects. Plus, U.S. Department of Agriculture researchers discovered that the pigment in Beluga black lentils acts like an antioxidant and helps protect against heart disease, cancer, and the aging process in general. Not too shabby for something the size of a pencil eraser.

What to do with them: Lentils can be stored a long time, are easy to make, and are one of the cheapest protein sources going, at just 75 cents per pound at grocery stores. And unlike other legumes, you don’t have to soak them before cooking. Just rinse them in cold water and simmer in water or broth. Enjoy them plain or spiced with herbs, onions, or garlic.

Vanity and Vulnerability

2007-12-13T22:57:00.000+03:00

Add this effect to your own photos

Add this effect to your own photos

These pics are as if i am in water..

AMir made this poster pic potrait for me

2007-12-13T22:20:00.000+03:00

my tiny indoor green garden..

2007-12-12T14:47:00.000+03:00

The lentil sprouts are fully grown and i harvested them time to time..green supply stays green!

i found it from someone's page, i will reread them timetotime.

2007-12-09T16:05:00.000+03:00

George Carlin:

The paradox of our time in history is that we have taller buildings but shorter tempers, wider Freeways , but narrower viewpoints. We spend more, but have less, we buy more, but enjoy less. We have bigger houses and smaller families, more conveniences, but less time. We have more degrees but less sense, more knowledge, but less judgment, more experts, yet more problems, more medicine, but less wellness.

We drink too much, smoke too much, spend too recklessly, laugh too little, drive too fast, get too angry, stay up too late, get up too tired, read too little, watch TV too much, and pray too seldom.

We have multiplied our possessions, but reduced our values. We talk too much, love too seldom, and hate too often.

We've learned how to make a living, but not a life. We've added years to life not life to years. We've been all the way to the moon and back, but have trouble crossing the street to meet a new neighbor. We conquered outer space but not inner space. We've done larger things, but not better things.

We've cleaned up the air, but polluted the soul. We've conquered the atom, but not our prejudice. We write more, but learn less. We plan more, but accomplish less. We've learned to rush, but not to wait. We build more computers to hold more information, to produce more copies than ever, but we communicate less and less.

These are the times of fast foods and slow digestion, big men and small character, steep profits and shallow relationships. These are the days of two incomes but more divorce, fancier houses, but broken homes. These are days of quick trips, disposable diapers, throwaway morality, one night stands, overweight bodies, and pills that do everything from cheer, to quiet, to kill. It is a time when there is much in the showroom window and nothing in the stockroom. A time when technology can bring this letter to you, and a time when you can choose either to share this insight, or to just hit delete...

Remember; spend some time with your loved ones, because they are not going to be around forever.

Remember, say a kind word to someone who looks up to you in awe, because that little person soon will grow up and leave your side.

Remember, to give a warm hug to the one next to you, because that is the only treasure you can give with your heart and it doesn't cost a cent.

Remember, to say, "I love you" to your partner and your loved ones, but most of all mean it. A kiss and an embrace will mend hurt when it comes from deep inside of you.

Remember to hold hands and cherish the moment for someday that person will not be there again.

Give time to love, give time to speak! And give time to share the precious thoughts in your mind.

AND ALWAYS REMEMBER:

Life is not measured by the number of breaths we take, but by the moments that take our breath away.

If you don't send this to at least 8 people....Who cares?

George Carlin

Harvesting day!

2007-11-26T16:00:00.000+03:00

SO final day the 5th day. I shall be harvesting my sprouts after class.
It taste really good!

Sproutin' my own food.

2007-11-25T22:54:00.001+03:00

day 1

day 3

day 4
harversting tomorrow!yay!
There s nothing u cant learn from the net!

London O London!

2007-10-24T00:43:00.000+04:00

after all the bad stuffs that happened to me before getting on the plane i was hoping that everything will be fine.
WHoohoo i m finally in London Heathrow airport!
Too bad time was too short, and lack of funds or else it will better i m sure.
But the stay in Heatherbank was great nonetheless.
All of sudden, i wish i can stay here too! People in London are multiracial and friendly!I found the clothes here are up to my taste but too bad they cost alot.
Besides the currency really can make earnings higher!
definitely a place to think about, who knows i might head here for the internship programme. We can always hope and plan but God will do the re

cucumber farm Moscow outskirts

2007-07-19T14:37:00.000+04:00

Just some place In moskovskii oblast. I found out that they do have cucumber farm..Mice live among the cucumber plants.
New experience and fun in the sun.

Our photos

2007-07-19T14:36:00.001+04:00

whack a josephine!

2007-07-01T20:52:00.000+04:00

Get Code | Create Your Own!

funny-but i dont think they are all true...fun reading

2007-06-30T17:12:00.000+04:00
If you yelled for 8 years, 7 months and 6 days you would have produced
enough sound energy to heat one cup of coffee.
(Hardly seems worth it.)

If you farted consistently for 6 years and 9 months, enough gas is
produced to create the energy of an atomic bomb.
(Now that's more like it!)

The human heart creates enough pressure when it pumps out to the body to
squirt blood 30 feet.
(O.M.G.!)

A pig's orgasm lasts 30 minutes.
(In my next life, I want to be a pig.)

A cockroach will live nine days without its head before it starves to
death. (Creepy.)
(I'm still not over the pig.)

Banging your head against a wall uses 150 calories a hour
(Don't try this at home, maybe at work)

The male praying mantis cannot copulate while its head is attached to its
body. The female initiates sex by ripping the male's head off.
(Honey, I'm home. What the...?!)

The flea can jump 350 times its body length. It's like a human jumping the
length of a football field.

(30 minutes..lucky pig! Can you imagine?)

The catfish has over 27,000 taste buds.
(What could be so tasty on the bottom of a pond?)

Some lions mate over 50 times a day.
(I still want to be a pig in my next life...quality over quantity)

Butterflies taste with their feet.
(Something I always wanted to know.)

The strongest muscle in the body is the tongue.
(Hmmmmmm......)

Right-handed people live, on average, nine years longer than left-handed
people.
(If you're ambidextrous, do you split the difference?)
Elephants are the only animals that cannot jump.
(Okay, so that would be a good thing)

A cat's urine glows under a black light.
(I wonder who was paid to figure that out?)

An ostrich's eye is bigger than its brain.
( I know some people like that.)

Starfish have no brains
(I know some people like that too.)

Polar bears are left-handed.
(If they switch, they'll live a lot longer)

Humans and dolphins are the only species that have sex for pleasure.
(What about that pig??)

Staying home all day made me sick..

2007-06-30T14:05:00.000+04:00
I felt like useless slob of jellyfish sitting in front of the computer all day long.
I finally decided to make myself useful and help some people by working in Hosp. no. 13 on Monday.Crossing my fingers..

to wenli

2007-06-27T00:49:00.000+04:00
Pls help me to bring some of these stuffs ok?since u r going to enjoy in Msia...
1)watever pastes with spicy sauce in bottles preferably.
2)shower cap from hotels u visited
3)Print my passport potrait 8 pics.
4)Meat floss
5)facial cleanser (whitening effect)
6)the rubber bands those plastic ones..

Park Gorky with wenli and peter

2007-06-26T16:02:00.000+04:00

Just one word=fun!
Long time since i last had such fun. But those rides are kindda expensive,about 4times more comparing to Genting.

message for wenli..

2007-06-05T23:06:00.001+04:00

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2007-06-05T23:02:00.000+04:00

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its me me me me!!

2007-06-05T22:55:00.001+04:00

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haha another anton!

2007-06-05T22:20:00.001+04:00

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anton gizmoz lols hahahha...

2007-06-05T21:55:00.000+04:00

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Stress and heat..

2007-05-27T16:31:00.000+04:00

Pic of me and my friend-she is one in a million ..
tighter and tighter my schedule went..every year it felt like a huge wall or barrier before getting to enjoy the holiday.. but when it finally comes down it always go to the one thing we think of, but time being it seemed to me the goal is still far and out of reach. With time and patience i need to believe i can do it.

CHopping their heads off

2007-05-21T19:06:00.000+04:00
It has been sometime since i blogged. Exams and controls are taking my life over, not to mention few associates to handle at the same time.
I am truly happy to achieve excellence in Ear throat and Nose exam the other day with the head of department. So far i am proud to say that i was the only one in my group to get 5 from Prof. Palchun.
I saw the advertisement of LInkin Park coming to St. Petersburg. I hope i can go too!!But i have 3 more state exams to go!!!
I don't have proper summer wear , i would want to find sometime and go shopping but time is a big factor.Really cant wait for the holiday.
My classmates aren't to my liking too, One loves to bring out irrelevant issues about other people and fire them up out of nothing. There are so many other important issues and interesting issues to talk about , but she choose the bad ones which brings no benefits whatsoever and might even lower your IQs!!They are disrespectful to me, as they think they are the majority.And cause they don't need me.
What do i care?BUt i just hate it when they bring out topics about my friends!!!!I would want to chop their head off!Spoilt brats!SHe is not perfect herself, no one has the right to judge others!...Every little things my friend does they will want to comment on it.And the other one,always too confident even if she s wrong,next time i wouldnt correct her and let her be in doom.Bitches!!!Go and fuck yourself!

It wasnt an easy week that went by

2007-04-19T18:59:00.000+04:00

Shall i start with the fact that the hostel admin was giving me problems again, or shall i start with the toughest cycle i ever had?or shall i begin this blog today with the best home cooked meal i had today?
But nonetheless, here we are..to keep are only good memories.

The weekend Helsinki trip

2007-04-10T14:04:00.000+04:00
It was cold in the evening as i waited for the train to arrive. I took one back pack for this short trip. The train has the same design as the one i took to get to st petersburg in winter.
But this time i wont want to miss the chance to visit the train restaurant.
They looked just as i ve always imagined. All red and with some golden touch to the decor.
It was about 630am when the train stopped at st peter to board more passangers.
Then the custom check 2 times.One time was at the border out of Russia and the other was At the border into Helsinki.But the funny thing is that the custom officers are inside the train!As i dont need visa to cross the border,some russians are puzzled.

The moment i reached Helsinki,i felt better. The people there speak in english. Some speak in Russian. I felt easier. The place was partly deserted if comparing to the overpopulated City like Moscow or Kuala Lumpur.
The first place to see was sealife. But comparing to Singapore's sentosa,it was lacking in size, structure, variants of fishes and not to mention the entrance fee was higher.
Everything is to be paid in euro. Then, decided to try KEbab at chilli's. Judging from the photo outside, no one will ever thought the portion on the plate to be so huge!!i can hardly finish half of the plate!Besides, their kebab is a lot different from the ones i tried in Moscow.
The city was windy, but sunnny. The view of the sea makes my heart fond.Reminds a little of home but of course the smell of the sea air here is a little different.
Instead of tiny yellow flowers growing amongst the grass was some violet flowers..pretty.
The national museum was closed so walked on to the parliament building. Multiple zebra crssings make me felt a little nervous but then and again, this place wasnt moscow. The cars do really stop!haha
However, we were told that the shops ,malls are all closed by 1900.So walked and walked and get some food from a small minimarket ,the metro looks similar to singaporeans metro.
I felt such a wonder as russia wasnt far from this country but yet the culture and people are so different!Some people might say that the buildings here are quite similar to st peter. i agree so but looking down the floor, hardly ciggarete butts or spit are noticable.
Had a good night rest and on this sunday-easter..had a good loook at the train station.

The day forensic medicine comes to live

2007-04-04T19:11:00.000+04:00

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2007-03-22T18:11:00.001+03:00
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i want to remember

2007-03-22T17:52:00.000+03:00

I want to remember the new friend you introduced
i want to remember the laughters we shared
i want to remember the paths to my future
i want to remember the taste of popping caviars in my mouth
i want to remember the bitterness of the Mocca coffee we both loved so much
i want to remember the fragrants from the jasmine tea we had in planet sushi!
i want to remember how embarresed i feel when the towel wrapping me fell to the floor!
i want to remember the noise you made when i was sleeping
i want to remember sunbeam on my face in the summer
i want to remember the shapes of all the snow flakes which fell onto your coat
i want to remember the sweetness of plain bread shared with you
i want to remember the hard fall we had while skating.
i want to remember the bittersweet taste of my first beer
i want to remember how scared i was in the dental clinic and u held my hand
i want to remember how much i cried when i dissapoint myself
i want to remember how tight was skirt /jeans are(they are still too tight!)
i want to remember how warm my heart felt when i hold your hands in the winter
i want to remember the joy we had when we cook our meals together
i want to remember the conversation we had to secretly plan suprise for each other
i want to remember the words you wrote for me by your hands which came from your thoughts
i want to remember the sting of the chocolate ice cream we had in the freezing cold of russian winter
i want to remember the sound of rubs between our boots and the snow on the path
i want to remember the excitement i felt while waiting for the weekends to end
i want to remember how u would carry me to avoid the melting snow
i want to remember the burn on my tongue from the hot chocolate you ordered
i want to remember the jokes we cracked
i want to remember how u pretended u dont care when i brought home my report book with excellent results
i want to remember how u would protect me from harm
i want to remember the stench of your shirt after u and and winnie fell into the drain to do what i can do!
i want to remember how much your cuteness have touch my heart each time i look at you
i want to remember how hard i worked to buy you your first bike
i want to remember how delicious a plain tea would taste in the winter
i want to remember how my heart fluttered each time u responded to my kisses
i want to remember when we were young and we hid mom's rattan sticks!
i want to remember how i held you in my arms while you were still a baby sleeping
i want to remember how much u love to share your favourite dish with me
i want to remember how soft your hands felt on my face
i want to remember how warm the wet towel on my forehead when i was having fever
i want to remember the break of my heart when u seemed like u dont care much
i want to remember the rules that we bend together in school
i want to remember your smile when you had chocolates on your teeth
i want to remember how it taste like to kiss your smile
i want to remember how your face smells like when u just had your perfume sprayed
i want to remember all the sights we gasped
i want to remember how it felt like to hold a huge carriage belonged to a 70 years old woman in the metro
i want to remember how tired i felt when time was running short on me
i want to remember how hard it is to open a plastic knot without fingernails
i want to remember the colours on the sunfish we saw at the aquanarium
i want to remember how hard i tried to look my best to meet u in an hour
i want to remember knocking on you while u were in the toilet and i was late.
i want to remember how hard these russian sushki biscuit even if they were dipped in the coffee
i want to remember the loud sigh each time i dropped to my bed
i want to remember the names on my prayers list and those i didnt mention after i fell asleep
i want to remember how happy i felt when u were happy too
i want to remember how my heart breaks when i see pearly tears on your face
i want to remember how red your face was after the winter wind blew!
i want to remember how you heart beats up a pace when i held u close in the cinema
i want to remember how you would praise the simple i made for u
i want to remember how much hassle to dress up in the winter
i want to remember much it costs us to bring home a puppy
i want to remember how much i missed doing things i used to love
i want to remember the salty breeze i tasted while being on the ferry
i want to remember how we used to laugh at the jellyfishes floating up and down
i want to remember how sweet a cup of water taste when we were thirsty
i want to remember how many promises i broke so i can still mend them slowly
i want to remember how much guilt i felt for taking something precious from you
i want to remember how weird i felt when i over dressed for a small occasion
i want to remember how you used to sweat after having my super spicy cooking
i want to remember how the bathtub sparkle after you ve brushed them clean
i want to remember how much freetime i used to have when we were younger
i want to remember how wasabi can make me cry
i want to remember how beautiful the frosts on the windows of the public busses
i want to remember how the ducks in the lake swam away when we approach them!
I want to remember how comfort it was being hugged by you
i want to remember how i laughed hard when we had diarrhea after taking slimming tea!
i want to remember the smell of chlorine in the pool where i used to swim
i want to remember the vanilla tea u made for me each time i dropped by
i want to remember the kick of 10++cups of coffee in the coffeeton
i want to remember how sweet it was the cup of cocoa dipped with bread stick
i want to remember how fun it was to feed you french fries with my hands
i want to remember how u smiled at me when i was stealing a glance
i want to remember how u waited for me when i was late.
i want to remember how it felt holding your sweaty palms
I want to remember ALL but my mind just cant hold on.I kept on forgetting and forgetting..i wonder where all my thoughts went when they were gone...

kimchee and dumplings day..

2007-03-22T17:10:00.000+03:00

well it has been a long time since i got time for myself and venture into my favourite hobby=cooking!hurrah!
SO today ,let s try to make some korean salad-their national salad=kimchii or gimchee or kimchee(whatever)
i hate garlic but since it was the important ingredient here so i just go along with it.
New cycle was a little taxing on my rest time as the hospital was far in barikadnaya metro near the zoo park which i intended to visit some day ,perhaps in the weekend.
The weather was great!i can be in my fav. miniskirt and sport shoes!woohooo!
Plus i love to jog in the park in front of the hostel where the lake resides.
As i was walking home with my best friend we made a funny poem which rhyme with ows..it was great fun..
i wore bikini at home and lay on my bed pretending it was the beach.OOoo yeah!

The explotion of my head..gone are the bubbles of thoughts

2007-03-12T18:02:00.000+03:00
The explotion of my head..gone are the bubbles of thoughts
my head..it just exploded...blood... all over the table..hahahha..they are on the computer,my therapy textbooks,lecture notes i got from some other ppl,mirror,some on the silver ikea table lamp,my family photo with mom and dad smiling on their last vacation and not to miss my cup of unfinished coffee..along side with the caffein pills i was taking for the past 2 months*let me tell u they dont do their work..i was still as sleepy as ever..

IT felt so damn good..no more pulsating ,throbbing pain on the left side..no more worries,no more things to think about...just me and myself...zero....and the wind blew from the window just 50cm away from where i was sitting.It was hot today..only now the wind started to blow..then they brought in some pollents from tht yellow stinking flowers outside...

As annoying as they are like always*causing me itchiness on the skin,and nverending rhinitis ..The pollents stuck themselves to the thick clotted blood on my face,yet some are still trickling down from the forehead to my left cheek..hypercoagulants?nah....hahahhaahhahahaha*wicked!what will i miss most?friends?=the more u have the merrier?NOT! Love?=they are just as hurting as much as they give u pleasure.. Hopes?=i gave up chasing them awhile ago..Food?=nahh...who cares..who need them when u dont have the appetite..Family?=All are flying away from their home..it wasnt the same the last time i checked..

Still,i would rather be here..hoping that u will never find me ,living in this peace i m feeling right now..Or if u want u can join me..in another parallel universe perhaps..

shit..back to me texts now..and testi..coz in 3 more days this exam is gona be over ..hanging on by the thoughts of other ppls hopes on me..

June 05, 2006

fLy like a real butterfly!

2007-03-10T00:01:00.000+03:00
Feel free and fly like a butterfly!weeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee..u must be thinking i was drunk while typing this..nah..it s just my private code so u guys can read it but cant break the code..heheheh.. xD

just a little thoughts i had today

2007-03-02T17:52:00.000+03:00
As i was waiting for the teacher to start, i noticed the bad stench from everywhere of the ward. But it has always been this way. The usual area where we took the lift was occupied by a body of an old grey lady.Stomach bloated and yellow discolouration of her skin. Her eyes areas was dark pigmentated. Luckily, she wasn't my patient as whose patient who died will have to rewrite their history.Mine was a lucky happy old lady with 4adult children who cared for her so much that they even hired a private nurse to take care of her. Her eyes are always shining and even if she did have many complaints, she will still be in her high spirit. But this dead old lady has none-no one to claim her, and even the person from the morgue was too busy to collect her. No one remembers her. They left her.

Then i entered the classroom, where i see me great teacher, he is this oldman with alot of knowledge and wisdoms.
If u asked him a simple question, he will throw in a russian proverbs and explain it with examples from our life.
When explain the theme, it was like watching a movie or interesting documentary. He was very captivating and put everything into the smaller picture so we wont be comfused. Then, a thought came by me....My previous professor was very old too. We didnt see him anymore, perhaps he was in pension now or touch wood,he died. God made us this way, our body wasnt made to be immortal. All the wisdom , knowlegde died with us when we leave. So in order to conserve what we discovered in our life, we need to jot it down!or write a book! but then and again, expressing things and seeing the real thing were not the same way to experience the knowlegde. Things are always most of the time better when fresh!Besides, books and materials cant interact with people. But professors can!

we made sushi today.

2007-02-23T11:42:00.000+03:00
finally!great sushi !!after the 3rd trial!i congratulate myself..

Lots of fish fillets, some wet seaweeds ,round rice, prawns, soy sticks, crab sticks.....we made some ugly set of sushi..hahha and ate 2 cups of rice!!cant believe it!!
the second time was a little better looking!!date= 27feb 07

I think this is funny

2007-02-16T16:03:00.000+03:00

Snow+spring=today s weather.

2007-02-15T15:26:00.000+03:00

Yesterday was Valentine's day. I spent it in the room watching some movies and studied my textbooks. The movie called Blood diamonds is a great movie but i think the fantasy flick called Night at the museum is just a 2out of 5. Had long day at the gynae department. Long time waiting , long time in classroom writing and long time in the hall.

Some people are broken hearted on Valentine s day. Some just want to rest and for some it was like any other days. Those luckier ones went out for their date and be with the loved ones.

Today snow was melting and how i wish someone would carry me to cross the street so my boots wont be wet...how sad...the inbetween of winter and spring..i heard they said next month will be spring. So soon eh?

Weird day

2007-02-13T02:39:00.000+03:00

The morning started slow as i woke up a little too early for class. I took my sweet time this morning having coffee and on the computer-Mr.GIgan. But he is getting older and lamer. Perhaps i used him a little too much to surf the net for vagina and female reproductive system materials for the cycle. So Gigan went goo gaa! Sorry i was just kidding.

As usual i traveled across the seas of people and hang on the metro and then hang myself again in the trolleybus as i was short to be holding the bars above me while standing. I sort of felt like holding some monkey bar.

I went to the Gaderob to find the old lady collecting the coats hiding behind the door! So i shouted Drastvuite! She was still behind the door, hmmm...wondering what she was doing then only i realised there was a mirror...Oooo. I thought she was hiding from me..who knows maybe my coat has some problem..

Then i went up to the 7th floor the gynae department of Hosp 55 in Shabolovskaya metro. Then some really bad mood nurse shouted at me, don't stand here u are blocking my way! So i moved. The day went like usual. To the clinics we went and see some patients. When the patients realised there were 7 of us , some got excited and made noises outside the examination/procedure room.
Came to us one young lady, like usual she ll have to take off her underwear and sit on the exam chair with her legs up. But oH UH she forgot the cloth*individual ones * to cover the seating area. Instead of wearing her underwear back and go out to take the cloth she left at the waiting area, She ran out and covered her behind with her hands!It was hilarious! Oh God! She must be embarrassed to death! I' d rather not live after that kind of moment!

I tired hard to control my laughter in order not to make her feel embarrassed but she smiled at us! We all(i mean only me) just burst into tears! Holding the laughter inside so our professor wont nag at us for laughing. So instead tears came out!

Then like usual we have lectures that never seemed to have endings-the so called never ending stories best to put you to sleep. And every time when i fell asleep with weird poses there will be the weird Russian guy who looks at me when i doze off. How embarrassing!Uhuhu....For that reason i ll try not to fall asleep but i still cant stop myself from doing that day after day!

Yeah my mind floats sometimes thinking about going skating in the weekends!hahahaha.
And Yeah, why does everyone keeps talking about Valentines. Sheeshh!totally depressing. COme on! MAn!

Skating day in park gorki -the park for gorks

2007-02-09T23:46:00.000+03:00

Friday was the day i waited for , after witnessing abortions at the clinic s surgical room, i cant stop myself from feeling disgusted and nauseous.

But friday evening turned out to be the greatest time skating in my entire life. I never had so much fun skating with friends or anyone before.
Gorki Park is an excellent place to learn to skate and enjoy the scenery. I was lucky to find myself a friend, Stepan who loves ice hockey and of course, he can skate very well. He guided me and scared me a few times but in the end it was really really fun!
The music and the ambience was great!The lights were lit and it never looked so beautiful at night in such park before!..He was very funny and careful at the same time. Indeed i had such a great time. He bought me some kind of wine *but i forgot the name of the wine. HA-HA...=)

korean food supper

2007-02-06T20:32:00.000+03:00

In mega we tried sushi and after that we went to korean food restaurant called Jasmine inside Hotel Salute.Pretty a hidden place. I ordered Kimbab and some soup spicy can contain taufu pieces with kimchee salat. The rest same along v rice and multiple dishes for free. We chatted untill 11.35pm and realised it was late and we were the only ones left there.
We took 281 bus and go to metro Yugo zapadnaya and from there we took bus 718.And head home.

Skating in mega.

2007-02-05T22:12:00.000+03:00

yo!yO! hear ye hear ye!isk hehehe..i ve got new skates!gonna take up this new hobby to the next level..After trip from st pete, i found newly improved,slightly better way on the ice.The stadium in st pete was nice.Lots of space less skaters. Improved alot since the 1st time. The stadium skating (1hour) session did gave me some insight and by the 4th time in the ring i managed to learn to stabilise myself on the ice even with stupid ridicilous moves,i can still be standing on the ice!

St petersburg fever.

2007-02-05T12:53:00.000+03:00

DAY 1(02.feb.07)= Took train by night at about 12am, luckily i have a friend to accompany me at the station as the rest took different trains on different time. Had great chat with him.
The moment i stepped into the train i noticed the very homey touch to the decor. Lucky for me the bunk was shared by nice people( and old man who slept early, A man and a woman who were partners in some business) I made friends and had great time chatting
When i visited the toilet, i cant find the flush which was below the seat. I saw a rolling knob and tried that,funny thing was i even pulled out a broom/mop as i thought it was the flush too!heehaws this was so embarrassing!Then came the time for me to wash my hands, again....i cant find the tap!so luckily i found the way to use it..Not bad huh for an Asian mice like me to be trapped in the small cubicle. I survived!!ha ha

I cant really sleep in the bunk bed. I was really tired but i cant fall into sleep like usual,i wont be sleeping at night. Sleep and wake cycle disturbed by exam routines. Or perhaps it was just the jittery feeling i felt excited over the trip.

Day 2(03 Feb 07)=Upon reaching the station, i saw the difference between Moscow and Pete. It was warm morning and was greeted with warmth by special friend who was waiting at the station. We went to the mini hotel Most near the station and rest awhile. The first place we visited was the Aquanarium which was situated inside a mall. The place wasn't so large or as huge as Singaporean one. Since Someone insisted to have BIG TASTY , we all just join in without any comments.
Gleb has other plans for me and wenli that was to visit the border of Finland and gulf of Finland but someone BIG wanted to go around the places so let the BIG boy be as we don't mind walking around the city at the time being.
We walked to Hermitage, museums,the small island, across the bridge, parks, the St.Pete s Kremlin,Almost all over the places including St Isaac's cathedral where we can see the whole city from the high building.
Decided to call it a day when our boots are all wet and tired. We went back to the hotel and rest for a while ,then went to Subway for dinner. But Gleb, me and wenli agreed for some sushi but since one of us don't want to ,we all went to Subway and have sandwiches with other 2 Russian friends. But being rude,some sat at the other table. Gleb told me that we can try the unfiltered beer here in St. Pete. I thought we will be going on foot to that place ,but by right we are going there by car owned by the other Russian friend.
So only 2 of us can go. Least did i know that the beer comes only in mugs as the bartender tapped it from the large tank. At first i thought those beers come in cans or bottles , so i cant take home some for the rest of my friends(so called).
As i reached the hotel i noticed some sarcasm from some people making remarks like*eh so soon?*Regretfully i felt for inviting them to come along.

I have great fun in the hotel playing pillow fight with wenli and had good night sleep.Though we can hear the other room clearly Mostly complaints and sarcasms. Really don't need that in such leisure trip. Spoiling my mood to the core!

Day3 05 Feb 07= The morning started late as we were all tired. The break fast was great but i heard some complaints again! This time was how other people had stomach ache from the subway sandwich, How come me and wenli didn't get it??SO what it had to do with me??It is my fault again bringing them to subway? It wasn't my idea in the first place! Are they really trying to get on my nerves??
The first place we went was the ice rink on the stadium. I had the greatest time there. My skates were very uncomfortable and after 1 hour use, the pain on the ankle made some difficulties for me to walk on the normal area, so Gleb just carried me to the changing area. Still i heard some comments from My so called friends. I didn't even complained when some of them made many embarrassing moments during the trip!STUPID People!really regretting it!
Since i ha vent tasted the sushi ,Gleb invited the Russian friends and we took car to the restaurant and had great dinner. But when it was time to leave, fount out that the friend's car was taken away by the council as he parked the car at the wrong place!
It was difficult ,my phone was low in battery and the friend panicked . Everyone was worried and when i got the hold of Gleb 's phone i called peter right away. At least to inform them i ll be late for the meeting.
Finally, we decided to take metro back to the hotel to collect our things. It was 9pm. But Wei soon was still drinking tea sipping, and the rest was resting. And i thought we were late!No one seemed to be bothered thought *someone kept saying "OH we ware late, dress up,and repeating it*but still none made move. So we all sat there until 9.30.Then we went to the train station when Gleb told me that i dint need to go to the station so soon as my ticket was 1 hour later, so we spent some time with the other 2 Russian friends and had cuppa coffee at coffee house.

So it's the end of the trip as i boarded the train. This time it was even nicer as i shared the bunk with 3 other young Russian girls and we Had great fun getting to know each other.
Day4 05 Feb 07= Finally i was back in Moscow. took metro and got myself safely home.

How i feel about this trip= stupid remarks made by others without any proper reasons to made the trip stressful. Regretted a lot inviting some people who was not suppose to be invited and those who came uninvited who made remarks!They are the same.
No more next time i learnt my lessons well. I d rather enjoy my trip with someone who loves me and can get along especially my roomie. Less company less troubles less complaints.
Trips are supposed to be enjoyable and relaxing. But anyway will be going there soon again in the weekends and this time no more other people.So we can go wherever we wanted and whenever we wanted.
Other than that, my trip was great and eye opening. I saw the difference between lifestyle between people living in 2 different city. The buildings are beautiful and i love the river which runs through the city..The architecture was superb so much more to offer than Moscow city.
I cant say i didn't enjoy my dinner at the SUSHI bar, i did enjoy it but just felt a little awkward with Russian friends. They smoke and drank beer as they have dinner...
walking in the cold in st petersburg are much more pleasant as here people are more towards strolling than rushing here and there.